Torn and confused

I recently accused my husband of sexual abuse of his 3 year old grandson. I thought I was for sure that this was going on. They took the boy and had him checked, he was fine, physically. I still can’t get this out of my mind that I was right! I’m a christain or atleast thought I was, I thought I was doing the right thing, I left my husband, My church hates me, people are judging my actions. I feel awful, If I wasn’t sure of this, why didn’t God show me I was wrong? I was told 6 months or more ago, I was misdiagnosed of being Bipolar to schizophrenia. I can’t make this right, I’m so torn and confused..

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Just know that it's a physical cause, and it always comes with the worst outcome, often too late to stop before a crisis happens. This wasn't you, it was your illness, and when one is ill, it isn't them--people aren't their illness. I myself feel as though I have an albatross weighting me down because of the chaos I started. This is going to sound harsh, but in an ideal world people shouldn't take mentall illness personal because of this physical cause. ((hugs))

You did what you thought was right. If your grandson had been in danger, people needed to know. I'm sorry your church is being so judgmental. A lot of people don't understand mental illness. They may think you made it up to hurt your husband.