Roll Call 143

My mother in law came over with my early Valentine’s Day gift

reread it lmao

I'm not sure how but like 4 days went by before I checked roll call. I also skipped a bunch of days without texting my bestest (I stole that from Valley, lol).

I'm not sure why I'm such a space cadet. I hope everyone is ok.

Girl Scout cookies? I have been craving them lately! But I don't know any girl scouts.

I've gained some weight too. For me, what is important is that my delusion isn't in control and I am able to feel pleasant still. That's as high as my emotions will allow me, and I'm able to hold a job, so i'm… I wouldn't say content, but acceptable (because of my anhedonia/flat affect).

Also, good for you for being able to have a relationship. I'm not able to. My coworker that is a female says that my standard are too high. That's not necessarily true though. -.- It actually because I can't feel lonely, which was the motivating force to be with someone, so now I just take try to built energy to be creative since I can't be with anyone on a deeper level.

Yes i am a very lonely person. And bored person, as everyone knows. Life with the bf is so awesome. He keeps me laughing everyday even tho he annoys me sometimes. Life is more fun with him!

@newtus, I need a new vaporizer, can you recommend something and a compatible tank? TIA

That's a pretty funny story. The bar I use to go to opens at 11 I think on sundays, and their just like **** it and give me a beer when I come in. I miss that place, there were a bunch of cool people there.

I would suggest snowwolf. I suggest that to everyone. If u get a whole kit, itll come with a tank and a new charger and a few other things like an extra coil or two.

So after you read them, if you don't want them anymore, you can take some t the library and give them away, and get a tax document for your charity that you can use as a tax return. That's what I do every year for books I didn't want.

I just realized my whole instagram is just me and the bf and our pets pictures!

Oh love is in the air

That sounds great! Does it have instructions?

My niece is a girl scout lol I love thin mints and samoas

I like to freeze my thin mints.

Yes it does. Any good kit should!!! But just make sure its an official snowwolf and not a knockoff.

I also have gained some weight. Part of it may be from meds and part of it is from bad eating habits. It's frustrating but it's not the end of world I guess. Just going to eat as healthy as I can most of the time and make sure to get some exercise. I realize I'm not going to be the weight I was when I was 18 again, it's just not realistic

Yes, those are so good!

OK! ....

i wanna be a nudest when i'm older.

I was telling my husband today...it kinda sucks. I don’t look forward to or enjoy eating anymore. It’s simply fuel to keep me running. I love food but I can’t eat that stuff. Then I cheat and get sick.
I eat freaking soup twice a day.

This anthropology course is really hard because it's taking up all of my time. Idk how the other students do it when they have many other classes.

Everything is falling apart with how fast this course is going. I have to do like 3-4 essays and I haven't even done one. The way I'm supposed to write is completely new to me in how I can't be biased.

My coworker isn't working. He's playing videos on his phone and it's distracting me. I'm overwhelmed.

I like learning on my own through the internet idk.. Idk about college..

I need a vacation. Every day I get up and have to do something.

I didn't really spread my wings until I sat at the library and started learning with primary text away from the chokehold of academic cud chewing. They'd have you read 1/3 of a book like you can master anything with 1/3 the effort. A nice coffee, a scone or bowl of soup, and a book, all at the library, that is where I like to be. A beer or 3 also helps to keep me motivated.

Every time I drink alcohol, I get very low mood then have to take a psychedelic to reset my brain. I reset my brain a few days ago so I'm going to drink zero alcohol from now on so I don't have to reset my brain again.

Im sorry valley
I fear thats what itll come to for me soon

So i wont lie. My books wasnt that good. It had good information, but it still wasnt that good.

But i deleted my fb post this morning because my cousin called me out on it publicly. Wish he wouldve sent me a message instead!