Roll Call: 146

Hi all, hope you are well. My wife is home from hospital and improved somewhat, although many things simply will not change.
I'm struggling to find people to relate to. Most people caring for a spouse as ill as mine are elderly, and retired, while I'm struggling to balance work with care. Or, they're a parent caring for a child - a hugely completely different situation.
I know this isn't the appropriate place either, so sorry. I have been having an influx of simple "hello" voices, which i always answer even if its inconvenient. I figure that may be the best. But they go away.
And thats sad to me.

Have had a really bad night.

Spent a few hours believing my neighbors were spying on me for the FBI and reporting everything I do to a van down the street. Also was hearing voices confirming all the delusional stuff.

Took my Geodon and Klonopin and it calmed down though. Feeling a bit better

Also went for a walk and got caught in a downpour, really not my night

will it help individuals with mental illness?

I can’t think of how it would...but I don’t know what’s in the pipeline for sure.

Listening to music and reminiscing about the sad memories

Everyone enjoyed dinner. I got fist bumps lol
I didn’t eat it...by the time dinner was done I had snacked too much. I’m such a child.
Now I’m . So happy this week is almost over.

My faithful companion

Neil gaiman "Other People".

one of my favorite short stories

you can find it online

another good saying I like is "the road to Hell is paved with good intentions"

I'm sorry that what I said upset you.. what you said seemed to be making an eating disorder as simple as "I want to have an eating disorder now"it doesn't work that way at all

regardless I don't have hard feelings and I do care about your well being and what I said was not meant to invalidate you at all. and I'm sorry my words were harsh.

haldol made my whole body feel so rigid and stiff... I hope the dr has some solutions for ur side effects

hi gretta... have missed seeing you around. thinking of you

hi everyone. sorry I've not been very active in this forum. I'm either at work or in my bed usually...

my lease ends mat 31st and my landlord bs socially said we have to be out then... I was hoping I could stay another month to figure out my housing situation but she wants us out because we've been making split payments on the rent past few months due to our power bill being $400 a month. at least its getting warmer now.. our last bill was $159

but now it's getting super hot in here and the landlord hasn't offered to put the window unit ACs in so we're just kinda baking in here lol

my mom and I looked at a condo last week. it's basically perfect for me- like 2 min from my job... my coworker /friend lives down the road, it's 2 bedroom 2 bath with hardwood laminate flooring (I hate carpet). it also has a HUGE screened in back porch which is a big plus to me cuz it reminds me of the lake house

anyway my mom put an offer in and they accepted it yesterday but want close to $2000 for due diligence money and something else... and won't put any money towArds the closing costs

we've also discovered that there is an issue with the exterior of the condo which the HOA fee covers... but depending on what it is and how severe (like if it's the foundation) it will take time to fix....

mom said she's going to find out exactly what's wrong before she counters their offer - and wants the HOA company to sign a contact to have the issue fixed within a certain time frame

so yea I'm prob gonna have to put all my furniture in storage and find a room to rent temporarily in someone's house... mom said boby can stay with her... cuz it will be hard to get a room with a cat

anyway that's a lot of writing and sorry bout that lol. hope everyone is doing decent

Hope you're able to get the condo junk, and that's great that your mom will take care of boby in the meantime

I'm going to an interview at an apartment building next Friday, and am getting a tour as well. It would be great to get a place there cause it's nice and more affordable

I wanna start the new roll call

Happy Friday.
Just finished my morning work. The less I work the less I want to work lol. But I need the money. If I was a betting woman I’d say Rok’s going to test + in 2 wks when he goes to the vet. They occupy the same territory.
Nothing going on today. Have to stay home and wait for FedEx. My sons frame is being delivered and I need to sign for it.
I think I’ll try to sleep. I haven’t slept well in almost 2 wks. Nerves are friggin shot.
Hope everyone is doing okay today.

I'm so sorry, valley.

Thank you @angelique.

How are you?

Not so good, thanks. MU went home and for some reason I'm provoking hatred in one of the staff here. I don't know why.

My friend might not visit until mid summer. I think he's still pissed off at me for saying he shouldn't visit on Easter.

Oh no . I’m so sorry. That’s terrible.
Please stay safe my friend