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#881
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I hope you feel better Kit __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#882
It's dead here today......
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Metaphysic
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#883
People always comment that I'm very articulate. But I don't feel articulate - Especially in real life. I just see a mess of a reality and have messy thoughts. If I could somehow organize my thoughts, I'd be better.. More meditation.. idk..
I threw away all of my drugs but bought some kratom so I'll drink some of that every so often. I met someone on the trip chat and he has schizophrenia and is really struggling. Has no family or friends just pets and a girlfriend. He had schizophrenia at 13 and started drugs at 15 and now he can't stop. I'm on the other side and trying to be sober. There's many people on that website that take drugs and have schizophrenia. It's either you take drugs and then get schizophrenia, or you do drugs because of schizophrenia to cope. Like chicken or egg thing. |
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#884
__________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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#885
Oh okay, I deleted tapatalk awhile ago cause I was getting so many notifications and it was taking up too much memory on my phone that barely has any memory to begin with lol so I use my laptop now.
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#886
The posting isn't working for me for some reason
Edit: of course this time it works lol. Lithium is working for me, but im not sleeping well. Saphris doesn't make me sleepy, just gives me a headache and makes my mouth numb. |
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#887
Trying again this morning.
Seems to be working with Safari. Ugh I’m not having a good day. A good mommy friend of mine is losing her daughter. She entered hospice Monday and has since deteriorated pretty quickly. They were going to do Christmas in June for her but they god dammit they don’t think she’ll make it that long. So they’ve moved it up to next week. I haven’t had it in me to reach out to mom despite her having been one of my best friends. Everything feels so shallow and empty. Then I was absent for so long. Just feels inadequate to reach out now. So I ordered a dozen custom Halloween and Christmas cards to send to her. I’m having them all done up in unicorns...Ila’s favorite ❤️ God I’m so ****ing sad for them. Life is ****. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#888
Good morning
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#889
Not feeling work again.
I’m actually like mid-anxiety attack right now. I’ve popped a couple Ativan but nothing. I think I’m going to put off work for a couple hours and do some self-care. I’ve been very stressed and overwhelmed with pretty much everything lately. It just feels like no matter how hard I try I cannot get ahead. There is always something or more often than not someone there to pull me back down. Anyway...hoping some breakfast, Netflix, and my couch for the next 2 hours will help. |
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The Dopamine Flux
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Morning
Another night of crying myself to sleep __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#891
Went to the library and got some stuff. Manga, anime DVD, Celtic mythology book, and We're all Mad Here: The No-Nonsense Guide to Living with Social Anxiety
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#892
I'm so beyond depressed...
My dads been drinking today I think so he's not able to talk. Literally. I called him and he's not making any sense. And part of me just doesnt want to be here in this apt. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I haven't brushed my hair in 2 weeks and I haven't showered in a week. Fiance is upset about that but I'm depressed because of him. Because he doesnt talk to me, doesnt hold, and doesnt give any physical attention to me. I'm depressed because I'm being deprived of human interaction. And he's been telling me what to do with my money. Kinda. He says I should pay certain Bill's with it instead of what I would like. I just do it. And my mom never wants to really see me. But she will travel across the country multiple times a month, every month. She cant be bothered to drive an hour here but will drive 10 hours to see my sis on the other side of the state. I knew this would happen. Everything was at a high, now it can only go down and I'm so worried. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#893
I was gonna spend the night at my dads but seeing as he is probably drinking, I don't want to anymore. I feel like I'm abandoning my dad. It makes me so sad.
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Grand Magnate
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#894
my internet is down, blah. Want to watch netflix
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Glad PC seems to be working today but I had to go through a different browser. Couldn't post yesterday afternoon. I have another migraine. Sucks. I think I'm stressed. That's not helping. I'm so close to giving in and just SH-ing, but I'm really trying not to. See T on Saturday. Maybe that will help. HUGS Kit
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#896
I just admitted to my old pss that I had a relapse with alcohol.
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#898
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#899
I'll have to talk to my therapist today about relapsing on everything and then flushing them down the toilet. At least I did that.. something right..
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#900
__________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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