Roll Call 155

Just got out of the hospital...

How are you doing?

Good to see you childofchaos, I had been wondering how you were

I'm getting anxious near the end of the month every month now because I'm worried the bank won't let me get a money order because my learners permit is expired

Ugh uhh ugh ugh ugh uhh ugh

Dont ask

Welcome back

Doing some heavy duty cleaning.

Lost more weight... 3 pounds.. I'm now at 190

I'm okay. It's just weird... So it just feels weird to be out of the hospital, ya know?

Sorry to hear that....I hope you feel better soon

HUGS @childofchaos831

*Pouting* I thought the controller was coming from NY to work with me, but she has barely done anything with me. She is sitting in the conference room, working with the owner...why did she fly all the out to CA then? Seems like a waste. Work sucks today.

My dr prescribed propranolol to help with the constant anxiety/panic since I don't want to rely on the klonopin 24/7. I've taken it years ago and it helped. Picking it up tomorrow

Ugh omg. Done. Done with everything today.

Work tomorrow and the next day.

Then off. Fiance and I are going to Nebraska Furniture Mart on Saturday. Which is like IKEA in size and affordability. Then after that, a Halloween party.

Then one more week of being here. Not even.

Going to see the place at 9AM on friday and sign the lease after. Then pick up the uhaul at 10am. That's next friday. Not this friday.

So far all the people that are helping us is, my mom and stepdad, fiance's mom, and maybe my boss. And fiance's brother is coming Saturday to help us pick up the dog house. My dad is coming in a couple of weeks to bring some furniture from my room. Not even. Hes bringing the old futon frame that we used when him and I first moved to his house, before we had a couch and all that.

I would totally keep going, but I figured I'll explain only a weeks worth. Lol.

I love science fiction too. Mary Shelley invented the genre with Frankenstein. I recommend Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep, by Philip K. ****. It's what the movie Bladerunner was based off. Snow Crash was Excellent. Ender's Game is Scifi. Hugo awards are given to exceptional sci fi, Ender's game won it a long time ago. Oh, Ready Player One is awesome, where better than the movie. But that's it, you wont learn anything from it but god it keeps a good pace and is so entertaining. That's all I can think of right now for Sci fi.

I see a lot of Alan Watts quotes on twitter all the time, I always like them. Personally, I haven't read much of Eastern Philoosphy except The Upanishads and The The Bhagavad Gita which is basically the mind is a battle field. It's good. Something more readable is The Zen Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. It's a good casual read with well reasoned way to new think. It was good.

Happy birthday, Falcon!!!

I'm sorry you have been feeling that you can't trust anyone.

I'm sorry your anxiety has been so bad. Maybe you can get an earlier appointment if you call and see if they've had cancelations. I hope something will help.

That's a good suggestion. I used to walk to and from Brooklyn everyday and it kept my anxiety pretty low. It gave me a sense of well being. You just need comfortable walking shoes (and maybe earbuds/headphones). @Blue_Bird

I have some injury on my tongue since Friday or Thursday. I either bit it really hard (which I don't remember) or it's oral cancer or something. The pain is horrible when I try to eat and drink. I hope the appointment you have will help with the pain.

My tongue thing is on the right side and farther back. I wish I had said something earlier because they do nothing when you first report an issue for 3 days. They take the approach of waiting three days before they do something. It hurts like hell. It's infected I'm pretty sure.

Missed one of my favorite Voyager eps today. The one where Reg Barclay makes contact with Voyager for the first time.

I cant sleep

Took me a while to get to sleep but I was able to...

Thank you! I hope you're able to get some relief too

My dental appointment is at 1:45