Roll Call 157

Yea I was thinking about that when I was eating them. I bit into the middle and it was gooey a bit cuz it was hot still. And the inside was green from the Christmas tree. But I knew it was just coloring I'm sure.

Idk why but I just did some art and writing in my Brooklyn art sketchbook project. Idk all this stuff just came out of me about my past. I wasnt even thinking about it. I was thinking about being bored and then I decided to trace my hand in the book. And before I knew it, all the fingers on the hand, I wrote my past in each finger. Like a summary. Starting with my thumb being my childhood.

Hm. Subconscious.

That sounds cool, put a pic on snap unless it’s too personal.....

I did!

I remember that day I walked into the doctor's office.. I said.. "I'm scared.." and he said "Why?" and I said "The last doctor called me crazy so I came to you, my heart either beats too fast or I have anxiety".

Doctor: *Checks pulse and blood pressure*
My heart: *106bpm*
Doctor: I will put you on atenolol and check your heart on the EKG
Me: I did EKG 20 times it always shows I'm fine.. I must be crazy..

Now I'm not crazy about my heart anymore =]

Feel hyper and tired at the same time

Have cat paralysis right now. One of my cats is laying on me and I don't want to disturb her but I need to brush my teeth

Trying to decide what kind of dessert to buy for Christmas

Are you making it or buying it premade?

Anyone love poinsettias for Christmas?

I love them. But its poisonous to animals.

Buying permade , just something from the grocery store

We are pie people, especially a nice apple pie that can be reheated and served a la mode.....

I usually get a tiny one but I’m not feeling it this year for some reason.....why not get a fake one?

Yeah I was considering that, I saw some pies at the store today , maybe I'll get one

They tend to have nicer ones with fancy sugared crusts closer to Christmas...another option might be a Yule log cake but that’s harder to find, depends if you’re more team cake or team pie 🥧

Taking this geodon and then haldol...fckd me up.

I'm manic a bit. Doing thing and talking fast. And then I called my dad and talked about my past and then j cried to dustin.

I love them too but yeah I can’t have them in my house for the same reasons.

First thing I think when I get up is man I can't wait to go to bed tonight. Lol. Not really depression just tired a lot and like to sleep

I have a hand written note from social security coming today and idk what it is, and I'm scared.

I might get one, but itll be put up high.

I'm like super pressed for time this morning. Thank god my work is only 5 min away or I'd be late late late.

I’ve thought about hanging some from the ceiling, it would be way too high for the cats ... lol. That would be a pretty unique look, now that I think about it. This house has crazy high ceilings, I’d have fun doing something like that.

Bought an apple pie and some vanilla ice cream for Christmas

Nice one, I like the lattice tops 😊

Not poinsettias but you can actually hang a waxed amaryllis upside down from the ceiling so you can see the flowers better....they don’t need dirt, you just hang them by the bulb.