Roll Call 157

These antipsychotics are the death. Of us. But we must take them..

Damn. Juice wrld died.

I dont haldol is right for me at this point in my life. I was on it 7 or 8 years. It helped me when I was really sick. But now it makes me too tired. SP told me geodon and haldol are on either extreme of APs. Which i didnt know. So I may try latuda again since I'm not as sick as I used to be.

I told my mom her Christmas gift because I had to due to it going to her. But she didnt seem like she cared at all.

Did my nails. Nervous about church tonight. It's been awhile since I've gone.

This is going to be major if I'm able to do it, it's been like 6 months since I've been able to get myself to go, so much anxiety but I think I can do it, just have to push through it

I'm in a bad mood today. I took 50mg CBD so that should kick in in 45 minutes then maybe I'll be better.

I dont think my mom and sister care about what I'm doing with my life. I cant help but still feel like I cant get them to like me. Of course they love me but my mom has told me a couple if times she doesnt like me. My sister seems apathetic towards me.

Idk why I keep chasing their love. It's useless at this point and getting old.

I feel nervous.

I'm so depressed today. And I was yesterday too.

Set up a bunch of ecards for the family for Xmas and their surgeries to send out later this month.

I hate being depressed. Stupid haldol. And no matter how much coffee I drink on haldol I'm still tired. Geodon I needed just 1 sip and I was awake.

I've been laying in bed all day yawning. Something I didnt do at all during the 4 months on geodon. I could hardly stay in bed on geodon. I was always going and going.

I'm taking the geodon instead of the haldol tonight.

I think the haldol is making me focus on my depression even more cuz it makes me depressed to begin with. Like all I can think about is negative stuff.

visiting my grandparents, about to go home though

You could try focalin again but very low dose like as much as a coffee would be.. increase a little norepinephrine.. (This is very very unprofessional opinion but out of empathy for your tiredness cuz tiredness is my worst enemy..). Ask your psychiatrist what he can do.

Also splashing very cold Canadian water on your face helps too. Or cold shower of cold Canadian water that increases norepinephrine in the brain by 3x.

I feel tired today too. And unfocused. The Vyvanse didn't wake me up this morning. I drank an energy drink but it didn't do anything.

Das the price of being on APsychotics.

I just have to say, haldol doesn’t cause depression it just doesn’t treat it the way an atypical does. This is why people use add ins like abilify to treat depression. Blame the illness not the med....

My mom pulled over and shes sleeping in the jeep on the way to her radiation.

Poor thing..

Hugs

Haldol causes mood changes. I was always depressed and lethargic on it. Always. Not saying it caused it, but it doesnt help it either, I think it makes it worse a bit. It's easy to say it isnt the med tho. A lot of people have told me this and that wont happen on certain medications and it always has to me. Just saying. I feel like it makes my depression worse, but doesnt cause it.

I still has depression on geodon but i was able to not stay in the mindset for more than 20 or 30 min. Ever since I've been on haldol these two weeks I've been nothing but depressed and tired. Even so close as to having to goto the hospital on monday for being very depressed.

My fiance can attest too. He said I was happier and did a lot more things on geodon. He didnt say I was depression free the whole time, just that I was able to navigate my mind to something more positive on geodon versus haldol. He said when I was haldol at the beginning of the year and when we met, I was always depressed and crying and he seen quite a change in me during taking the geodon. Still, not perfect, but better. So it makes me think.

Idk if anyone is like me or not, but I have really fast and sometimes serious reactions to medications. Which is why I've been on all of them except these really new ones. They all didnt work or caused me a physical issue. I've had lots of weight put on me from weight neutral medication. I get off them, I eat the same, and dont exercise and I lose a ton of weight. (From 2 previous experiences).

Not just that, but on a medical level, someone can sneeze and 2 days later I'm sick. And I'm told it takes a week for that to set in. But i get sick fast. I get sick from the flu vaccination. I cant eat a lot of different varieties of foods because most foods make me sick.

I was a preemie baby. 5 weeks early. My mom drank when she was pregnant with me. I was around smokers. I have kidney issues. I have issues with my bones, my menstrual cycle, my skin, and other things. I have problems with my teeth, my hair, and my breathing and gait and I have issues swallowing correctly because of the chiari malformation in my brain where part of my brain has grown into my spinal cord, from birth. Which is a genetic condition for me.

No. I dont goto the doctor. For anything really, medical, unless it's an emergency. Because I dont have a lot of money.

Newtus I’m not saying you aren’t more depressed on haldol than geodon, I’m saying that your illness isn’t being effectively treated by haldol in the sense that it’s neither a mood stabilizer nor an add on agent.

Ok. That too. I agree. But I needed to say my last post because I get a lot of questions about my health for different reasons and I wanted to put my physical health in one post too. And I just realized how much physical shyt is wrong with me and its depressing.

I am going to take the geodon tonight tho.