Roll Call 160!

I talked to the RN that oversees my care yesterday afternoon. She wants me to think about IOP if she can find one that works with my work schedule. I can probably ask for an accommodation in my working hours or something. But I have to be able to work, I got bills! She thinks that Pastor T might be stressing me out too much and she isn't sure I should see him. Several people on PC have said the same thing. I don't know if I am ready to quit seeing him. Maybe I need to see all this stuff as a spiritual issue. Maybe then I will be healed. I gotta believe though--and I think I'm skeptical deep down. She said some of the stuff he says to me would be hurtful to her if he said it to her. That made me pause. She wants to know if I would go to a NAMI support group. There is one in my area that meets the second and fourth Thursdays. I'm kind of anxious and scared about trying it, but I guess if I don't like it, I don't have to go back. The RN also wants to talk to my T but so far my T isn't talking to her so she had me sign some form that says she can talk to her. Well the RN can talk to the T I don't know if the T can talk to the RN. I don't really understand that part of it. And she wants me to find a gym. Sheesh. So much stuff. And she is going to call me next week since I was IP last week.

My parents are going out of town for 5 days next week. Last time they went out of town, this is when I messed up, SH-ed too much and ended up IP. I'm trying to plan something for each day after work so I don't end up in a bad place. Kind of stressful though.

When I was IP, one of the bigwigs sat at my desk and was filling in for me. He was like, Kit has way too much to do. We need to get someone who can back her up. Lol. I wonder what they would think if they knew I spend half of my day online when I am at work!!! I always get my work done, there's just not enough for me to do.

I’m reading along, my odd quiet isn’t because I’m dying (because why else would I shut up eh lol) ... I find myself rather preoccupied so I’m not able to post as often. I’m still checking in, however.

Thinking of getting a pastry or something from the vending machine

A cream cheese pastry sounds good @Blue_Bird

I got a snickers bar and a cheese danish 😂

Yeah, I am craving chocolate too!

Hey what happened to the banana split?

I think I’m done with schoolwork for the week but I’ll probably work ahead tomorrow ....I always feel behind with these classes.

How many classes are you taking SP?

Just two but they are masters level....

Yeah, that's a lot. I only took two classes at a time during my Masters either two semesters or three. Mostly I took one at a time just because between the coursework and my actual work it was a lot of time and commitment. It just worked out better to take one at a time even though it meant it took longer for me to get my MBA.

I ended up not going out today because it was cold and lots of snow, but maybe this weekend

I don’t like the art I made at all and I have to goto the artists Reception soon.

With me not working right now it’s reasonable tbh....I think I just need to learn to set aside free time and work time you know. If I took one at a time it would take 5.5 years to complete so I don’t really want to do that.

Hugs.....I’m sure it’s not that bad.....

Thinking about running up to 7-11 for a brownie but it’s snowing and will be dark soon.

You should get one unless it's not safe on the roads

I decided it could wait until tomorrow when it’s light out again.....maybe get some valentines candy instead.....

I hope things will be okay while they're away, check in here as often as you need, if you're struggling we're here for you

I want more valentines candy lol I ate all the Russell stover chocolates . I really want one of those huge Hershey kisses

Yeah I can’t be trusted with chocolate myself 😀

My friend is helping me bring some of my stuff over here tomorrow. I need to stop at the library also, actually, there are 2 libraries in town I need to stop at to drop some items off/pick up requests. Then we're hanging out at his place. I have 6 appointments next week.

I feel amazing