[Blue_Bird]

Welcome to a new Roll Call!

[Blue_Bird]

I'm already coming up with future colors I want my hair dyed. One is Enchanted forest, and the other is Purple Haze, both by Manic Panic. Of course, I'll have to get my hair professionally bleached someday, before I could do those colors. Or maybe I'll get the colors done professionally too.

[newtus]

Heyyyyyyyyyy

[newtus]

My mom dragged me out of the house cuz I wasn’t feeling well with my mental health passed few days. It helped very slightly cuz I had just woken up and took my meds.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by newtus

My mom dragged me out of the house cuz I wasn’t feeling well with my mental health passed few days. It helped very slightly cuz I had just woken up and took my meds.

That's good you got out. The longer I go staying inside my agoraphobia flares up and the harder it gets to leave

[Desoxyn]

Feeling so tired. Took an extra stim.

Not sure what to do today.

[Blue_Bird]

Having mozzarella sticks for dinner

[Blue_Bird]

Wow, it's already 5pm. the day flew by. I guess that's what happens when you're dissociating for several hours

I'm druuuuuuuuuuuuunk

[cogladaid]

Originally Posted by unsure123

I'm druuuuuuuuuuuuunk

I got homemade tacos and Kraken!!!

Originally Posted by cogladaid

I got homemade tacos and Kraken!!!

Nice!!!!!!

[Desoxyn]

It's a cold day today.

I feel anhedonic.

[Blue_Bird]

Going to get up tomorrow and get a start on cleaning

[Blue_Bird]

I want another tattoo. Maybe once I complete a class when I'm back in college for a reward

[WastingAsparagus]

I am hiring a new pdoc as of Monday. Can't stand my current one. Hopefully, it will go well with the new one.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I am hiring a new pdoc as of Monday. Can't stand my current one. Hopefully, it will go well with the new one.

Good luck! I hope your new one is much better

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Good luck! I hope your new one is much better

Thanks! I hope so too haha

[Desoxyn]

Feeling horribly sad and tired

My mental health will deteriorate if my doctor teases me with the stimulant again. It's the only thing that helps me focus and withstand the sedation from the high dose antipsychotics.

I tell you guys I plan all of these things to do - And the worldddd.. the ****ing worldd.. I just want to improve myself - I don't drink alcohol, smoke weed or cigarettes. I'm good.

Waiting and waiting and every passing day is hell. I sleep too much as well. My mom has a bad cold. I worry about everything and everyone a lot.

I want to give up. I really do. I wish I had a reason to give up and it would make life so much easier. Why did all of these bad things happen to me in severe isolation? Music is the only thing that helps and ever had. Not drugs. I had no one supporting me. It felt like I was in a dark black hole.

I'm trying to live in the present moment, do meditation. The things I want to do in one day takes weeks or a month to do.

At least I'm not having panic attacks. I want to feel emotions. I want to live life - Avoidance got me no where. I sit here like I always have and life goes on without me.

[Desoxyn]

Ah ignore that I'll be positive eventually without reassurance

[Blue_Bird]

Got the bathroom mostly cleaned. Just have the floor to sweep and mop next

[WastingAsparagus]

Anybody else have problems with metformin making you feel bad? I am taking it for weight gain from the Zyprexa. It seems to just make me feel sick all the time. It's bad.

[Blue_Bird]

It used to make me feel bad, not anymore though. I know if I don't eat enough while on it I get sick

[Blue_Bird]

My friend and I are going to be watching horror movies and having popcorn and snacks on Halloween

[Desoxyn]

Just woke up. Almost noon. Feeling lazy.

[WastingAsparagus]

Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Just woke up. Almost noon. Feeling lazy.

I feel incredibly lazy today, too. I think it's because it's snowing outside.