Roll Call 181

Like I wish I could be productive 100% of the time.

I try to be at least half of the time.. Most time I just need to connect with people through social media.

Except for that, I do my 20-30 or so things that I do..

Idk am going completely insane it feels like yet I'm also fine.

Some nights I just wanna stay up really late.

Christ it's hard to live. Literally.

We would normally go out for a meal for mother's day but we're cooking at home tonight.

Yesterday was crazy. Got manic. I never get that way.

Stimmy gone. Spent that early morning hours throwing shyt at the wall at a wasp. Was hearing voices and seeing stuff and was anxious. Got drunk and Spent an hour last night in the shower. Then woke up fiancé at 1am to have se-X and do crazy shyt.

Mannn

Are you feeling calmer now @newtus ?

Yes I am thanks. But sick to my stomach and feeling weak. Probably the alcohol and being dehydrated.

Yea, maybe get some gatorade or powerade if you can. Water is good but the electrolytes will help a lot..

I struggle with that feeling sometimes. I wish I didn’t have to sleep so could do things. Hell, even my hobbies are productive. Learning, or crocheting.

Second day of respite. My voices are bad and not making much sense.

If I may ask, what does respite mean in this context? You don't have to share if you don't want to, I'm just curious.

Also, sorry your voices are bad.

I have 4 hours of work today.

Hi!
I have psychosis and a severe learning disability. My family takes care of me but they needed to give me to someone else for a couple of days so they can pack. I can’t live independently which is sad

Should be studying C++ but I keep thinking ahead to my next courses. I want to work on calculus already. I don't want to do this C++ exam this textbook is awful.

It's PI day so there's a place that has cheap pizza so we're going to pick up cheap pizza later.

Well, you're welcome to chat with us here!

I feel depressed midday sometimes. I don't have much to do.

We're thinking of selling our condo townhouse in the next couple years (after paying off some bills) so my mom is doing some painting and fixing up. We have a list of things we have to do including replacing some flooring, new vanity in the powder room, painting upstairs, etc. Slowly working on things while trying to save money.

But anyway, our neighbor next door has their condo townhouse for sale, and another one right across the way also is going for sale so I really hope they get what they're asking for because they're pretty comparable to our place and means we could get more for our place when we go to sell.

Really our plan is to sell this place, go in for a freestanding house with more room. Looking at a split level so it'll have big windows in the basement. Go together for a down payment, put my name on a mortgage and all pay into that. I don't mind our condo townhouse, but I miss having a freestanding house.

Anyway, we were talking more about it and my mom got inspired to fix up the front entrance so she's working on that while I study.

Thanks! I need more people to talk to. I am having a tough time right now because I see people who are higher functioning like in my family and it makes me feel bad that my parents take care of me like a child.

Seeing commercials about taxes and I can't wait to know what I'm getting for my tax return...

we’re having snow flurries. I don’t want winter to go. I mean, I do want sun, just not the really hot temps. Spring is alright though, it’s not too bad. I’ll miss the snow though. Even though it is a pain to get around in because they don’t really shovel or salt sidewalks around here so I have to choose to either walk in the road almost getting hit by cars or walk on ice on the sidewalk slipping and falling.

I miss Christmas already. I have Christmas books and Christmas music that can remind me of it in the warmer months though.

Have a load of laundry in. And just took out the trash. Tomorrow I go for blood work , so I can start the new med.

My acne has been really bad lately. I think it’s because I haven’t been eating really healthy lately. I’ve been eating a lot of junk food (ice cream, cookies, etc) like way too much of it. And stress. I know those two things can make acne worse.

I’m gonna try to eat healthier, start washing my face with my cleanser again, and work on my anxiety.

It’s snowing like **** here.

Having a glass of wine. The last alcohol I'm having after tonight for the next month or so while I get used to the new med. I just want to give the med a chance to work

I tracked my stimulus payment on the IRS site and it said it's scheduled to be deposited into my bank account on the 17th, so St. Patrick's day.

Oh man, I want some French toast