Roll Call 189

I got the Z fold 3 phone today.. I spent 3+ hours setting it up.

I have all of my things now. I have nothing to complain.

I felt anxious - Still kind of do.. During the phenibut taper.. + I'm tired.

Tomorrow will be a new day - where I'll try to be as mentally stable as possible. Cuz going backwards in terms of self improvement doesn't do anything for me anymore. I tried a few times... But I'm just too aware now.

It is time..

I'm so mentally fatigued I think from the APs

I like Googling things like this;



It's infinite frames per second my guess is - Like a clumpture of pictures for each meaning.

RIP Schrödinger's cat. Or not..

Bf basically just said he could never live with me because it would be my rules and not his....me living with him is slowly extinguishing my fire.....not sure that this is going to last but I don’t want to move back to my old place because I have issues driving there Thinking about staying here until I sell my place then moving some place warm. Starting again. So complicated.

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Plus he said that if I moved back he probably wouldn’t stay with me so what would be the point of staying here....I just feel trapped. Things were never this way before I moved in due to covid.....I need my autonomy.

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Hey guys. As some of you already know, me and Nick moved out to our own place. So relieved and it removed the stress on me a lot. I’m thankful for his family for letting me stay at their place for months, they spoiled me and did everything they could to make me feel comfortable but I’m just too broken to live with people I just met. I also felt like I was being a burden even though they said they’re more than happy to have me there. So here’s a new chapter. Can’t believe it’s almost 6 months since I moved to States. It’s been both hard and fun. Hard because I’m far from my family and a new culture and environment are challenging. But at the same time it’s fun due to a whole new experience and adventure. I feel safer in a new country too because my home country smells like PTSD, too many triggers there. I’ve been learning how to cook these few days, I was spoiled by my mom and sister back home that I barely cooked. I’m slowly gaining back my independence. My goal for the next summer is to open an Etsy store selling my paintings. I’m working hard to enhance my painting skill to reach to the point where my painting is worth selling. My birthday is tomorrow and Nick said he’ll buy me a desk to paint on as a birthday present. Wishing you guys a fun weekend!

I'm sorry SP I hope you can figure something out and maybe move someplace you can enjoy

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I’m so sorry things didn’t work out with your bf. Can’t imagine being in your place right now. Stay strong SP Is renting out a place an option at the moment?

That's awesome 12am!! I'm happy for you. I think your paintings will sell really well because they're wonderful

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Thanks BB I’m kinda afraid that this would only be another dead dream, so many goals I couldn’t reach in the past. But I believe that if we’re not doing the things that scare us then we’re not living our life to the fullest

I bought some canned chili. I like having it with lots of cayenne pepper in it to make it spicy since I don't have jalapenos at the moment

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My sister just passed away.

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I'm so sorry. We're all here for you. ((HUGS))

So sorry for your loss

((Hugs)) SP

((Hugs SP.))

That's a great point - I didn't really think of it that way.

Also I'm helping myself by working because it gives me income and other benefits.

I want to look at things more positively.

I'm sorry, SP.

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I'm so sorry, SP. Things will get better, hopefully soon.

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It’s snowed on the ground in animal crossing today. Bf went shopping with his mom. I feel alone here now....we need to work things out but he doesn’t want to try counseling, he says he did that with his ex wife and the issue was the third person, his mom. Not sure what to do.

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Just had ramen and it really hit the spot

It's just instant ramen, you boil water and put the noodles and season packet in, so it may sound stupid but I'm proud of myself, I normally just eat a protein bar or protein shake, just anything extremely easy that requires no preparation

I think I'm making pumpkin bread tomorrow

My cat has just discovered the joy of boxes, she keeps running into one and jumping in and out of it

Trying to get off the Klonopin still... Sigh. Ha.

It doesn't sound like he appreciates you lately. I'm sorry, I hope things get worked out.

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