Roll Call 201

Also just wanted to share with people if there's anyone interested in creative writing, to blow off stress or whatever, there's a reddit devoted to writing prompts. It's on reddit and the sub is just called WritingPrompts. I just wrote a decent story off of one of the prompts off of there.

Also just curious about those who know about relationships or if you want to put your opinion forth, how do I tell my significant other what I want to do without being/sounding defensive? I mean that I want to be independent without her. But I don't want to sound like I'm leaving her or something like that. If that makes sense... Someone might be able to answer my question. Independence is tough in relationships I gather...

WastingAsparagus I don’t have advice but I know it’s healthy to have independence and time to yourself in relationships, my bf and I mutually understand that we both need our own time to ourselves to do our own things sometimes. I hope you’re able to figure out a way to bring up the subject with your gf because it is important

Yayyyy it’s payday so I bought groceries with most of my paycheck. So I have a Walmart grocery delivery coming tonight. Super excited to have food in here cause I’ve been just getting by with like ramen and pb and j lately.

I would just say I needed some me time on occasion to do whatever…but specify writing etc.

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This is what I got

- [ ] Flour
- [ ] Sugar
- [ ] Chicken nuggets
- [ ] Frozen Jalapeño poppers
- [ ] Sweet Baby Rays honey mustard sauce
- [ ] 2 cans of pumpkin (to make like pumpkin bread and stuff like that)
- [ ] 2 lbs ground beef (85/15)
- [ ] 1 lb boneless skinless chicken breast tenderloins
- [ ] Yellow onion (2)
- [ ] Hamburger pickles
- [ ] Worcestershire sauce
- [ ] Mayonnaise
- [ ] Thousand island dressing
- [ ] Sweet relish
- [ ] Hamburger buns
- [ ] Shredded iceberg lettuce
- [ ] American cheese yellow
- [ ] Bananas
- [ ] Blueberries
- [ ] Almond milk
- [ ] Greek yogurt plain
- [ ] Eggs
- [ ] Butter
- [ ] Avocado x2

I have all the stuff to make the Big Mac sloppy joe recipe I found on Pinterest

I got a set of two decks of lord the rings themed magic the gathering decks because they were on sale for $10 less than their original price.

Put money on my bus card for bus fare. And my violin lesson I already paid for for this weekend. Cats have food and litter. I have all the essentials I need in the house. And bills are paid

Since I have Halloween off work I’m probably gonna bake chocolate chip pumpkin bread that day.

Yummm. Sounds good.

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Pumpkin bread is great especially this time of year! I’ve made it many times before, but never have made it with chocolate chips yet. I love banana bread too, I’ve only personally made banana bread one time before but when I did the entire house smelled like banana bread from the oven and it was amazing

Never had pumpkin bread before, but for thanksgiving a couple weeks ago we made pumpkin cheesecake. It was so good.

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Pumpkin cheesecake is great! You should definitely try pumpkin bread if you get a chance sometime

I’ve always wanted to learn how to make cheesecake of any kind but I have always been intimidated by it. I do want to eventually get a springform pan though so I can try it. Trying to get more into cooking and baking. It’s a lot more satisfying making something than just going out to buy it. Though that’s fine too and good too but something feels extra nice about making something

I have two loaf pans so I’ll probably make a loaf of pumpkin bread for my sister too so she can bring one home, to thank her for the memory foam pillow

I’m super excited about these jalapeño poppers coming in my Walmart grocery delivery. They’ll be here in an hour. I’m gonna make them for dinner. Those things are so good. I’m gonna make them in my air fryer

I go get my covid and flu shots tomorrow

All my groceries are here and put away now. Just had some jalapeño poppers. So good. Don’t recommend taking a bite of one immediately after it comes out of the oven though. The cheese gets extremely hot. I know that and knew it was a bad idea but I was super impatient and hungry. Lol so I burnt my lip/mouth. But it’s okay. Anyway yeah. My sister is gonna drop off the memory foam pillow this weekend. And I have a new comforter I bought. Eventually I’m gonna replace the crappy furniture that came with my apartment with my own. Next week I’m gonna buy a lamp, some new sheets, more memory foam pillows and a Sherpa lined blanket.

Next summer I’ll buy a nice futon to replace the peeling loveseat that I have now. And I’ll get a new mattress to replace the crappy one that came with the apartment. And a new lounge chair to replace the crappy armchair.

Basically all the furniture I have that came with the apartment is really cheap and pleather so it’s all peeling just simply because I’ve lived here for 4 years and that kind of stuff doesn’t hold up well. The mattress is vinyl so it’s not super comfortable and the vinyl on it is falling apart too. So yeah I’m gonna save money from November through June then replace this stuff

I got sucked in and we did amphetamines talking together every single day (Often for hours at a time) for ~2 years. I don't regret - But she pushed, like *wanting to live me* right away etc..

This happened before. But AvPD autist friend is genius, and means no harm.

Now I'm doing my own things mostly.. I don't think I'm a sexual weirdo though - But those people like me cuz I don't judge and am empathetic.

But she needs to get off speed, clean room, exercise, go outside, socialize... And not.. Code all day. We're gonna do some Python in an hour.. I like learning, and she's very loving.. I said no sex though from beginning. So that upset her, over and over again.

I was tortured. Cuz of my empathy. Only now I realize that boundaries are needed. What ever you do, it can't be as bad as me - Although I've been constantly constructing my reality with philosophical and spiritual thoughts, overcoming DPDR, and getting off olanzepine.

I would still spend time with my family, go on vacations, hiking, working, attending to goals (But important here - The goals weren't attended to.. So I have to make priorities). She's just a friend now.. It will stay that way.

I feel burnt out from my job just 2 months into it. Idk if that’s normal or not. I found myself thinking about the future and being there for a year or more and the thought of sui entered my mind as a better option. I don’t know if I’m depressed I just hate it and hate the people there. It’s such a toxic environment. The customers, the management, the coworkers. All of it.

I’m trying to make it a year then probably leave. Because I don’t think I can put up with it for longer than than necessary. I just want a year of experience to be able to put on a resume

In other news I’ve avoided social media (Facebook) the past couple days and my anxiety is a lot less. Cause I’m not getting information overload and scrolling for hours etc. Not that it’s made me more productive. I didn’t really do anything today. Just listened to a lot of music and watched a show with my bf. But it’s better than scrolling endlessly. It’s such a time vortex, like I’ll go on there planning to be on for 5 minutes or so and then 4 hours later I’m still refreshing and scrolling for no actual reason. I went on for 5 minutes today though and actually only stayed on for 5 minutes just to check on some of my favorite cats on my Facebook cat groups I’m in lol