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And the rest

A lot of them are silly little light cozy fantasy romance books cause I’m trying to get out of a reading slump. But yeah I’m excited about these books

I'm taking a break from violin lessons for 2 months since they're expensive but I'm still gonna practice everything we've been working on everyday in the meantime then I'll resume lessons in August

I have to go get bloodwork for my psychiatrist on Monday. I see him Wednesday. I'm doing well aside from the slip up with the edible use, that was my own fault though and I definitely learned my lesson from it. I'm hoping we can start decreasing the thorazine now that the abilify is up to 20mg. The goal is to just be on abilify and trileptal. So we're workin on coming off the thorazine and zoloft now.

It's been 5 days off THC now. I'm tracking it with the I am Sober App. I feel better when I'm sober. Like a lot better. There's not that euphoric high which can be fun but at the same time I feel stable and a lot more in control and calmer and more productive, less paranoid, less delusional, less anxious, less panicky. So I think living a sober life is the best for me. Also I was getting kind of obsessed with getting high. Like I'd schedule it in my day daily in my time blocking scheduling app like a weirdo because it was the main thing I'd look forward to and I'd plan out all my future weed related purchases months in advance. That's not good. Especially since addiction runs in my family and I have an addictive personality.

I spent the past two months high and planning my days around getting high

I’m finally through that nightmare and feel 100% better. I walked on the treadmill on an incline for 30 minutes. Sat outside for 30 minutes and read. Did the dishes. Got my protein powder and almond milk. I feel alive for the first time in 6 days. I slept good last night. Woke up, ate, took my meds, fell back asleep and took a nap for a couple hours. Now I’m just trying to decide what to do the rest of the day. I might draw some. And practice violin and ukulele

I forgot to say thank you for the birthday wishes from you all so I’m sorry. Thank you, I was just so out of it the past 6 days.

The main withdrawal symptoms I’ve had from quitting THC 6 days ago were anxiety and nausea. The nausea was really bad the first couple of days. The anxiety and panic was astronomical the first 4 days. I still have some anxiety but it’s getting better overall. I hope I didn’t like permanently wreck my brain or something though

my progress so far with quitting thc and caffeine. i do dri k decaf now which I know has very small amounts of caffeine however compared to 6-8 cups of fully caffeineted coffee a day thats a lot better.

Increasing the dose of Abilify can lead to impulsivity so be careful

It partially agonizes D2 receptors (Like LSD) - Can give you bad ADHD, like what happened to me, pure manic impulsivity, recklessness, self-destructive etc.

I'm doubling the dose of Vraylar tomorrow - It partially agonizes D3 receptors, and D2 (A little bit). Very good for depression.

I’ve been on this dose of abilify before (when I was on the injection) and it wasn’t an issue then so I don’t think it will be an issue. It’s been 3 weeks since he increased it to 20mg from 15mg and I don’t feel manic or impulsive. It was actually increased to help calm down a manic episode

I’ve been on vraylar before in the past I was on 3mg of that. I couldn’t sleep on it though and it was making me kind of manic so I had to get off it. I hope it helps you though

Manic? Yes..

Give me mania o.-

(Jkjk) - Hypomania would be nice though, to make up for all of my horrifying despair and depression lol

But it has just been like a mood stabilizer, which is what I really need.