Hey, I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and recently some voices i have been hearing have started to tell me that i have done bad things in the past.

One of the things I am told is that I hurt someone in the past. I am a compulsive and pathalogical liar, so it is often hard for me to differentiate between what REALLY happened and what I have made up in my mind or told someone as a lie. Hurting people is an irrational fear i have had since i was young but recently this voice is making me worry even more.

When i was younger i witnessed an accident but a few days ago, this voice managed to convince me that it was not an accident and that it was my fault. I also became convinced that this was something i had worried about for years. I was pretty much certain that this was true and i even told someone.

Yet today, when looking back and trying to think more clearly, i realised that it was not true that i had worried about this for years. I now realise that it was just the voice telling me that.

I am just so confused; i was 100% sure that i had done this. The voice made me so confused that i made up a whole story to go along with it.

I am just so terrified at the moment, the voice had me so sure that i had hurt someone when it was not true. I even told someone that it was true. I am questioning my entire past now.

Does anyone have any tips on how to tell the difference between a
'made-up' memory and a real one???

Oh, also, is this regular of schizophrenia to make up and entire story to go with an idea or is that my lying?

[iamtwilight]

Hi, I'm not schizophrenic ("just" psychotic) or a pathological liar, I do hear voices telling me I've done something wrong but I don't believe them.

However, I have a question for you. Do any of your "made up" memories sound weird to you? That there's a "hole" in there somewhere? Or does it all perfectly make sense?

In my short history of hallucinations, there's always been something "weird" in there somewhere. That has helped me a lot.

Just my input.

there are holes in them yes, big holes but there are holes in a lot of my memory. but thank you, that has helped me a lot
erica xx

[iamtwilight]

I'm glad to have helped you.

All the best for you.