[Normalplease]

For the past month or so, I've been seeing/hearing things that I'm pretty sure aren't there. I'm having random thoughts that seem to come from out of the blue. Someone could give me really bad news, and I have to fight not to start laughing. My friends are starting to worry. When I tell them what's going on, their favorite answer is "get help". It's not that simple. Unless my mother finally realizes that something's wrong, I can't get help until I completely snap. Anyone have any suggestions/advice?

[spiritual_emergency]

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Normalplease: Unless my mother finally realizes that something's wrong, I can't get help until I completely snap.

That doesn't seem like much of an option. I assume that your mother doesn't realize that something's wrong -- do you mean that something's "wrong" with you or do you mean that something is "wrong" in your relationship with each other?

Yes that sentence about your mother worried me too. Could you not talk to your mother about your worries?
please take care
erica

[Normalplease]

I mean until she realizes that something's wrong with me. I've tried talking to her, but she just threatens to take away my notebooks (I'm a writer). It's like she doesn't believe me, or something. I don't know how to make her understand that I'm not kidding.

[iamtwilight]

Your friends starting to worry is a serious sign.

Can you seek help without your mother? And inform her later that you are in therapy? Maybe your future therapist can have a talk with your mother, or maybe all the three of you could meet.

Hope it all turns out well.

[Normalplease]

I'm a minor, so there's not much I can do without my mom. Guidance counselors (at school) have been telling her for 4 years that I need to be checked out, so I doubt her talking to anyone would make much difference.

[iamtwilight]

Ouch, that's a tough situation.

Can you try telling her that you'd like to see a therapist for, say, anxiety or depression? It doesn't sound as "severe" as hallucinations.

That's what I did, told them I was being treated for bipolar then later revealed that I was actually seeing and hearing things.

Also, if your hallucinations scare you, you can try to tell yourself that it's just your brain not working right now, so it's not as scary. Can you still carry on doing whatever you were doing when you hallucinate?

Take care.

Katie

[Normalplease]

No, I would have to do something pretty damn crazy for my mom to even THINK about letting me see a therapist.

Now, the hallucinations DO scare me. Badly. And they do interfere with whatever I was doing. I freak out, and what was going on before them is pretty much forgotten.

There are also these other things that I wouldn't exactly call hallucinations. They're flashes. Like I see myself doing something. Then it takes me a second to realize that I haven't done anything, and another second to decide whether or not I want to do what was in the flash. It's weird, and I think those are almost worse than the hallucinations.