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. Glad that that's over...I think
. And this too

Hopefuly now Satchell can just rant for a little while in the back of my head for at least a little while now that she got to post. I kind of doubt it though.

I put this under this topic because well....were ELSE would a put it? Hopefuly people here can sympathise with voices in your head just going off like that.

....which is exacly why theese things I heavily saturated with "trigger" because I don't want people to be hurt by it and trigger themselves.

I would still appreciate ANY response though
...I feel like the snake that's eating it's own tail

But why?
Why is this happening when it has no cause?
Sure, I moved around alot
Sure, my brother was always a bully
Sure, I was bullied alot at school
Sure, my parents had their own issues too with their lonliness

But seriously, that to me does not fall under the qualifications you need as "material to make your psyche start splitting and attacking itself" especialy considering there are a ton of other people out there who had it worse but turned out better.</font>

[pachyderm]

Where'd you get those cats? Did you make them yourself?

You said ANY response...

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pachyderm said:
Where'd you get those cats? Did you make them yourself?

You said ANY response...

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<font color="purple">You mean in my signature, they're off of photobucket, I didn't draw them I could show you some pictures that I draw, once I re-charge my digital camera.

woke up this morning and didn't want to tounch this thread or those entries with a 10-foot-pole. Too much shame attatched. Maybe right now is different. </font>

[Typo]

Have you been under alot of stress here latley?
I know back in January when I was under alot of stress and had been majorly triggered I had basicly a nervous breakdown and started hearing voices. I still do on occasions if I am under a huge amount of stress.
You can pm me anytime you want to Kaika to talk about this or just to talk.
I know how confusing and scary it can be.

[free2beme]

Kaika,

Maybe this is the only way you can let your feelings out.
Sometimes our hidden selves let us react a certain way that our irl selves would never allow.

Hurt can't stay covered up forever. When you were younger, these things ( your brother, moving, being bullied, and parents with their own issues) may have hurt or frightened you and possibly you felt there was no one there to protect you. (I am speaking from my own experiences).

Maybe Satchell says how you feel (hurt, angry) and reacts like you really want to about the past.

It's ok to talk to your therapist about these things. . . and us too.
love ya!

<font color="purple">I'm not under stress really (infact, my life is less stressful then it has been in years! ...At least i think so anyways)

It's hard to describe...
Because we're not the same, but not completely different either. When I let the other voices have their say...it's not me, but I still am litsening. Just taking a step back to litsen what the other parts of me have to say

it makes some sense though. I was often times too worried about other people to just be a kid, and there was no release for my anger because no matter what I'd always end up losing anyways.</font>

I dont know why stuff like this happens to us....And Im talking about any bad form of mental illness that seriously messes up your life. I am the wrong person to talk to about this right now. I am not doing good right now at all. My psychosis has let up a bit the last month of two but I am still very delusional. It really scares me that sometimes I dont realize that I am not stable or rational at all and my thought pattern is way off, because I always thought I had it under control.

I just dont know...I hope you do good and everything is okay one day...but I know for a lot of people that day never comes. I dont know what causes this stuff, if anything even does. I am like you, I have been through some things that I know realize may have been harmful, but other people had it worse than me and they are doing fine right now, I know this for a fact. I really hope that you do better one day, there is always hope out there.