i caused a problem, sorry

i caused a problem, sorry. seems my curse follows me even here. sorry to all if i caused a problem. I AM REALY SORRY. i always cause arucas it seams. i feel i caused a problem when there shouldn't be one but i am responsible to it. I AM SORRY. i take the blame and will take the punishment for it.at my self cost.

reddragon, it's perfectly okay. You didn't cause a problem. You were sharing some fears and concerns of your own and there's nothing wrong with that.

I hope this remains a place where you feel you can continue to do that.

~ Namaste

No problem here I am glad you brought it up it has helped talking about it I was thinking the same as you but didnt think of putting it on to make me feel better, so THANK YOU ! .

(((((( reddragon ))))))

I don't think you need to be apologizing, you have not caused a problem. I hope that you will continue to post here and find support.

I for one learn from what other people post -- even if sometimes the learning is scary! So, dragon, you did not hurt me. It can all be education!

reddragon, though I have no reason to be posting in schizophrenia, I was following your thread because I found it very interesting. I don't believe you have anything to apologize for. You were saving a post for a different site and you raised some issues that others had or had questions on. You started a wonderful conversation and a learning experience for all. Kudos to you for that! I hope pc will always feel a safe and comfortable place for you.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Reddragon}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} It wasn't you who caused the problem. Shed that guilt. It's not yours to carry.

What should have happened was that I should have responded to you by PM and no one else would have been involved. I could have just answered your concerns in detail.

Please, please don't feel bad. It isn't your fault, ok?

(((((( reddragon ))))))

Everyone here is right.....you did nothing wrong and have nothing to apologize for.

Please take good care reddragon and know that you are among good people who care.

_sabby_

(((((( reddragon ))))))

(((((reddragon)))))))))

everything was my fault. i made a mistake. i tried to end this at all means , evean against my voices. i thought what i started here and my voices would be gone. now i am home on my birthday under a suicide watch, on oxygen , and overseen what i am doing now.while they are away a bit , even my voices say, what the f, that was wrong. ,, not right i am but my curse all can see now. i always cause problems, NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR SAY, ANYWHERE. that is a fact.
if tyrin knocks on this door one more time i will shank him. i know i need to put the iv e back in, just wont put neadles in my arm. go for now,tired, he needs to goto bed and sleep. gne1.

you are born (we all are) with a unique power reddragon.. managing our own thoughts (esp after trauma) can sometimes lead us to places of questions and uncertainty, demolishing our sense of self ability, confidence, and robbing us of a future of independence...

never forget the saying that it takes two to tango, sometimes its a group dance and we need to recognize that at times, the whole group is learning.. you are ok with us..

Hello reddragon,

please do not feel so bad about what happened. Most of it was NOT your fault, but rather more a typical incident as it happens often in social forums. Something is posted, some users misunderstand or misinterpret the posting - and the whole thing spins off with unbelievable dynamics of its own.

As I see it, this can happen to everyone who actively uses a online forum. So this is nothing specially connected to you, reddragon. Therefore it is DEFINITELY NOT a question of fault! You made a little mistake, as could happen to anyone. But that is no big issue at all.

Please do not make it a all-or-nothing-matter. The "problem" has been discussed, thread closed, game over and out. Nobody will look back on that anymore. So, everything is fine again! No need for self-accusations. Relax.

Reddragon, not everyone has the strength to admit own mistakes, but you have shown that strength. So you are not at all as bad as you see yourself (as it seems to me). On the contrary: I have the impression that you are a responsible person and not willingly doing harm to anyone.

And I don't think you are cursed. I understand that there may be and will be reasons why you have become used to think in that way of yourself. But you do not deserve to treat yourself so rude. There is more good in you than you might feel or know. Something made you loose trust in yourself, I guess. I hope you will find a way back to your inner core, which cannot be corrupted or cursed, never. I have the impression you are not lost and will find your way. Do not give up. You seem to have the inner strength and your heart is in the right place.

I wish you a good recovery from the recent stress,
bluenarciss

ty, but all should, know, i am not that strong. all my life i try to help and get burned. that is part of my curse

Many of us have experienced the same. I think we understand how you feel.

((reddragon)))) learning is sometimes uncomfortable, dont disconnect if you can help it, we understand and support you, its going to be ok

reddraggon i read your post, you did what others would have done saved a post from elsewhere while your computer was freezing, when my computer freezes i get anoyed
you did nothing wrong ppl responded to what you wrote, these thoughts have made everyone think so that was good

stop telling your self you are a curse as the more you tell your self the more you will belief it, start finding good things about your self , maybe the colour of your hair or eyes but i dont belive you are cursed, feel free to pm me any time even if its to vent

((((((((((((reddraggon)))))))))))))))

ty for all concerns and help. i wnat all that posted in th closed posts to find outhere sights. i am not that strong and yes i am cursed.we know this. all help here is appreciated and thanky you., becaus of late past actions, i have meds forced into me. somme i can spit out later.

((reddragon)))) i am very glad that you are still posting and letting us know what you are internalizing... i think i can understand your statement about the perceived curse on you and i think there is a hope that the cloud could lift in time... i can see you have a solid base of support in this forum and i am happy to listen to you anytime if you want to PM... there is hope for us and it is the strong who never give up who are helping us all get there

ty, recovery going good ty, and i am cursed, no stoping that.reality is that.proof is in life, experence it , then you would know. like to listen to the voice to do sommething, not hur yourself and them, just work to quitet thre=m if you end a there way.