[LittleForgetMeNot]

All I do is just sit around at home playing on the computer, refusing to go to school. I'm only in 10th grade and I have the capability to get As and be at the top of my class.. but I don't.. And here is my friend, my first true friend since before 6th grade.. She goes to school but she struggles so hard that she's failing.. I feel so guilty for some reason.. Like I should just trade brains with her because she deserves to succeed more than me.

[hoping4best]

Oh dear...m a lot older than u but still i find it difficult to concentrate on studies. Take a step forward and just try to push urself to go to school. I hope that after first few days it wil become easier for u to go to school regularly.

[LittleForgetMeNot]

To be honest, in the beginning I find it quite simple.. but then around two weeks into it I suddenly get a strong urge to run, to get out of there. I'll fight it for a few days.. but the more I fight the stronger it gets and I end up abandoning class and staying home. It's been happening since 6th grade and I'm not really sure why it happens at all but it does.

When I was in an alternative school (where I met this friend) I managed to go everyday.. but the main difference was that my high school has 1500+ students and alternative had 18 at the most that was split into two groups for 70% of the day. I don't find it that hard to concentrate.. however I get very.. uncomfortable when public school teachers force you into groups. My English teacher this year forced us into this everyday and I hated it. I freeze up when I'm in groups; I don't look at anyone, say anything, and I have no opinion on anything, even if my classmates urge me to participate I'm just a zombie.