Just started a course, now a mess.

I just started a cours ein floristry last week and now I'm thinking it was a terriblemistake.
Yeah, floristry sound fab, doesn't it? But I didn't account for how much hard physical work it is. I asked my teacher yesterday to be frank with me. I asked her if I could cope in the real world of floristry with my disability and all. She said she didn't want to say no, because people with physical disabilities CAN work it out, but I may find it difficult, especially with my chronic pain.

I was a mess that day, having been awake since 3am, and a mess today when I talked to the college counsellor. I'm going to try to stick it out for at least a semester....but now I'm wondering if I've made a huge ridiculous mistake. Maybe I should change to community services. I love helping people. But......I love flowers...I don't know I can't handle this, I try so hard and get nowhere....I can't get a job from my last course, even though I got distinctions, and now this....I'm 32 this year and haven't had a real paying job......ever. I feel so hopeless and unwanted.

ssorry for rambling, Ijust feel like I keep making mistakes.

Amolass,

It's never a mistake to try new things because without ever having tried them, we'd never have a way of knowing if it might be something that unfortunately that we don't enjoy but also that we'd then miss out on something that we might love too.

I'm so sorry to hear it is not turning out as you expected. Perhaps because it is new, it is just going to take a little more time to get into the swing of things or perhaps there are other areas of the floral industry that might be interest instead. In the meantime while taking the class, you could explore the option you mentioned, Community Services? was it, and inquire more about it as to what is specifically involved in this field to give you a better idea and to possibly switch to.

You will find something. We all do in our own time. Keep your eye open for possibilities and one will come.

Please don't be so hard on yourself, dear one. Believe me, we never truly know what something is going to be like until we get into it. Not a "mistake," but a "learning experience"!

Are you having to stand on your feet a lot, lift things that are too heavy, and so forth? Only your body can tell you what is too much. I was never able to do much physical work because of bodily limitations.....I ended up being a teacher and sitting on the desk a lot when I taught!