[apethetic26]

school is just rolling on and im barely keeping up. i have trouble caring remotely even though i know deep down that if i fail, ill never be able to accomplish my dream. i have to move forward, but i feel detached all the time. my body just sits in the class and i feel like im watching the events that happen around me in third person. i know that if i try i can do good, but its so hard and i fall everytime. the apathy is like a grey coating over my vision that makes everything seem pointless. i dont know what to do anymore and i hate to say it but i dont even feel anything about it.

[FooZe]

Originally Posted by apethetic26

school is just rolling on and im barely keeping up. i have trouble caring remotely even though i know deep down that if i fail, ill never be able to accomplish my dream. i have to move forward, but i feel detached all the time. my body just sits in the class and i feel like im watching the events that happen around me in third person. i know that if i try i can do good, but its so hard and i fall everytime. the apathy is like a grey coating over my vision that makes everything seem pointless. i dont know what to do anymore and i hate to say it but i dont even feel anything about it.

Hi apethetic26, welcome to Psych Central!

Your mood icon seems to say pretty much the same thing as your post above:

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Have you talked to anyone yet about your depression? And by the way, is there anything you'd rather be doing than sitting in class?

[hahalebou]

Sigh, I have the same problem. It's so hard to focus on the subjects I'm supposed to be learning, it's not that I don't want to care but I physically can't. You're not alone, and I hope that things look up for you soon!

[apethetic26]

i have talked with a therapist on and off for the past 2 years. and i dont really know what else i would want to be doing. thanks alot for responding, i say this from my heart, whatever its worth. i needed to say something but i have trouble conveying my thoughts to a lot of people.

[Umbral_Seraph]

I know about not having any drive; it's made my parents so mad with me many times. I hope you don't have the problem I do of not being able to make decisions by way of just not caring.

[Dani]

Originally Posted by apethetic26

school is just rolling on and im barely keeping up. i have trouble caring remotely even though i know deep down that if i fail, ill never be able to accomplish my dream. i have to move forward, but i feel detached all the time. my body just sits in the class and i feel like im watching the events that happen around me in third person. i know that if i try i can do good, but its so hard and i fall everytime. the apathy is like a grey coating over my vision that makes everything seem pointless. i dont know what to do anymore and i hate to say it but i dont even feel anything about it.

I can totally relate to this because I'm having the same problem at the moment. I'm supposed to graduate in the Spring with my AA degree to transfer to a university in the fall and I know I need to stay focused on school but it is really hard and I find myself either not going to class or just going and sitting there feeling like I'm not really there, just going through the motions. The only thing I can suggest is to remind yourself of your goals for going to school and keep reminding yourself everyday of what your dreams are, and that you need to finish this to accomplish your dreams. I know it's hard, but you have to keep telling yourself that you can do it and don't give up.

Glad you shared apethetic26 welcome

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Apethetic26!

Originally Posted by apethetic26

...i feel like im watching the events that happen around me in third person. ... the apathy is like a grey coating over my vision that makes everything seem pointless.

That's an excellent description of my own experience of depression.