[jazzy123456]

idk.... maybe i'm not cut out for this. i can't focus. even when i come to class
i'm not really all that present... i just drift off into space...i can't do this anymore... this is currently my 4th year in school...I changed my major so I have two years (which includes 2011, this current year) left till I graduate...I might even skip class today.

[Izraehl]

Maybe you're just feeling really run down. Sure skip a class as long as you think you can handle making up for it. Relax a bit. If you don't have time, make time. Also, in 5 years are you going to say 'I'm proud I dropped out of school with 2 years left and have ______ job to show for it.' or would you rather say 'I'm proud that I worked through the tough stuff and earned my degree and now I have _____ job to show for it.'

Life get's hard sometimes and you just want to rest. There's a quote "Scared is what you're feeling, but brave is what you're doing." Maybe we could change that a little to say: 'Exhausted is what you're feeling, but persevering is what you're doing.' Just stick with you. You'll be good.

[**Angel**]

Can't top what has been said above really but just wanted to add **Hugs** Ir looks like you are going through a lot, are you over ally stressed about anything and how are things at home? All of these could affect your lack in motivation as you have other things to worry about!!! Do you have someone their you are able to talk to? School nurse or aclose teacher or friend?

[StitchIsAwesome135]

i agree with izraehl. actually i'm in the same position you are in, i struggle with classes and going to class and the such day in day out. if you have one available a school couselor has helped me by trying to give some perspective from an outside point of view

[filensave]

I agree with what has been said, the best thing is to find someone to talk to, and take it day by day. Ultimately do what you think is best for you.

[depressed45]

Why don't you make an appointment with the counselors at school and take an interest test? You may have an interest that is outside of college. Have you checked yourself out for any type of ADD? Good luck.

[depressed45]

Maybe you should go to the counseling office and take an interest test to see what careers are for you. It may be that your career path does not involve college. Just a thought but have you been checked for any type of ADD? The very best of luck to you/

[Jabrielle]

I am also approaching my 4th year of studies. I have been going to school half time, as I was taking care of my very ill life partner for the past 3 years. He passed away in November, and I struggled like crazy to finish that semester, than jumped into the Spring semester, and that was the hardest school has ever been. My partner was gone and I felt it all meaningess, and couldn't focus, and thought I was lazy and beat myself the heck up. I really had to take the summer off, and felt guilty for that. My thoughts toward school in the fall right now is vascillating at best.
With me it is a matter of re-establishing my life, and re-examining my goals. I have already done the career development class at the begining of my studies, but maybe it is time to go over these goals. Maybe something has shifted in me and I am not being true to my inner self? I don't know, but in the time I have taken off, that is what I should do. I look at it as exploration and expansion, rather than veering off a self-set path.
Also, I need to make or forge my own niche somehow while learning.
One thing I have done to kind of accomplish this is create a portfolio online of my favorite and most challenging essay papers, and my personal writing. Sometimes I go there and it refreshes my interest, or brings some of the exhilaration I first had in the learning process.
It also provides clues as to where I really want to go. For instance in reading what I have written on life histories of animals, I am forever enthralled (I am a Natural History major).
I dabble in different ways these are expressed, and in the research to integrate the information I gathered to come up with my essay exam answers, and lo and behold come up with the idea that I love and thrive off of the illustrative (in tandom with writing) components of learning things...so I embark on an experimental nature journaling project this summer...and guess what..I am good at this.
It may not be what I end up making a living doing, but it sure refuels my interest, hopefully when Fall semester starts, I will be refreshed.
For me it is not just muscleing up and pushing through, though... that is what I did last semester, and felt I learned nothing. I had to review my efforts, good and bad, in last semesters essays, and find the common theme that attached me to this vein of studies in the first place (life histories of animals)...then find a creative way to express it (illustrated journal).
But the main thing is I had to take a break to get to this point, and am still assessing my path for the Fall, so staying open to possibiities. Truth is I feel a little divided right now...well...no...a lot divided, and am afraid I will self sabatage. Decisions are hard right now as I feel at a juncture where everything I do will effect me forever, and I am afraid.
Many people here have given you key advice as they too have been at similar junctures and worked through. I like you am in the midst of it all. Maybe I can lend a little hope to you if only by way of being in a similar state at the same time. Good luck to you.

[Perna]

It sounds like you have a loss of plan? I don't know why you are in school in the first place; I went initially because everyone else was and it was expected of me and it may/may not have been the best idea for me. I made it work; almost flunked out my junior year but got through with one extra summer school semester. I wish I had had a plan of my own though, would have made it a lot easier I think. If I were suddenly confronted with being just out of high school and going to college these days, I know exactly what I'd do. But, 50-50 hindsight is like that, I'm 60 now and retired :-)

[jazzy123456]

thanks for all the support/advice. I just now came back across this. I wish psychcentral would give me some type of warning so I would know that I got responses... I post on so many threads ...anywho... its gotten WORSE since I last posted.. I was taking three summer classes and I had to drop one, I'm hoping with a little will power, I'll be able to pass the other two and move forward. YES, this is hard for me, because this will, indeed, effect me forever...

It's kinda like now or never in choosing a major... I have like 2 years and at this point I'll be taking all of my junior/senior level classes after I'm done with the summer. All, except for one. So, if I don't make up my mind, I will stay in school to become a TEACHER-- (education is my degree). However, I really want to be a school counselor so I'm hoping to get a masters in counseling. Yes, I need a plan. I do well on things/life when I am interested in what I'm doing. I think I just need a clear/ WRITTEN plan, strategy... instead of it all being disgombobbled, in my head, floating around... ughhh, I need this advisor to stop going on vacation and meet with me!

Thanks you all for offering some hope my way though, what really keeps me going is actually, exactly what you said, its like I have 2 years left...I spent about 3 years in college.. its kinda dumb to quit but, yes, I went to college right after high school and if I had of understood myself like I do now, if I understood what I currently understand, theres no way I would have went to college, I think I'm better suited for a trade school or something, where you earn the degree in 2 or 3 years. Thats just me. but, now I'm stuck with what I'm stuck with.

thanks for being so open Jabrielle... good luck to you too and sorry for your loss, hang in there!

I quit seeing the school counselor... not a good fit... too lazy to find a new one... I've always thought I had a learning disability but, my parents always have said and my therapist said a year or two ago that there is nothing wrong with me... in that aspect.. however, my therapist said that after knowing me for like 2 months, so Idk how accurate that is..really?