having trouble with grades plus pressuring parent

hello! lately i cant focus on anything and ive beocme really disperse in class, and out of it too! iva had a lot of trouble at home lately and im not sure if thats the cause. its like when im in class i cant even look at the board and i space out, and when i look into the blackboard i cant focus on whats written there, and it seems like a big black hole thats just there and empty. sometimes when i space out i just stop listening to what everyones saying and its like a mumble of voices and i get really sad and feel like crying. Theres a tutor in my class, who is a teacher and stays at the back of the class observing everything and she called my dad because she noticed i had problems and i needed therapy. its not that im dumb either, because i used to get 100% in tests before, but my dad put me in a school where you didnt have to study and it was a mess because theyd give you worse grades if you had good grades, and if you didnt do anything theyd give you better grades, so i stopped studying since then. then i had like a year where i didnt study at all because i moved and we had a lot of problems.. has anyone else felt like this? is it normal? i feel like im never gonna get into college and be able to get a job. it makes me feel really bad.

Is there a counselor at your school you can talk to? I agree that some sort of professional to get help from would be good. (Most all of us here for awhile are probably in therapy or have been in therapy at some point.) I can see why that school led you to be more laid back about your studies. And even moving to a new school can be stressful. Depression can also cause the inability to concentrate. And now you're getting yourself into a vicious cycle by getting depressed about your future. We need to get you out of this situation and back on track!

Please keep us informed! (Could you talk to your teacher(s) about what's happening, too?)

Sorry for the late reply, and thanks for your concern I havent talked to my counselor yet.. I used to have therapy but my dad wont pay for more sessions though I ask him to all the time! I've been to 12 different schools in all my life, that must be one of the reasons too...it's so frustrating! Because everytime I'm starting to feel better and start to get out of this, it comes back but worse... I'm starting to try to keep track of the days I feel bad to see if theres some sort of pattern or something.. I just dont know what to do! I feel trapped. I did try talking to a teacher about it, but I started to cry and couldnt stop, and then I couldn't talk at all and as she kept talking to me i felt like i just wanted to get out of there, then spaced out completely and felt like i wasn't there anymore, like i was watching a movie, and it was all going to pass and I'd be out of there.. I wish I could just be normal