[poptart316]

This semester has been going bad. I dropped my graphic design class the second day. Recently dropped my math class after I missed so many classes, I had a really hard time grasping/retaining it it all and it's an arithmetic class y'know very basic stuff and I'm starting to think I'm stupid.

I'm doing well in my English class, my professor said that I'm one of the better writers in the class so I'm sticking with this one, although barely now.. I missed the last class and didn't do the pre-writing assignment and have yet to start on paper 3.. I just gotta force myself to do it.


I'm majoring in graphic design, it's I guess it my goal at this Michigan Works program and I'm not really sure about it.. I get the feeling I wont like it or wont be any good it. I was also thinking about photography or just a liberal arts degree.. this is for my associates. I keep telling myself to just stick with it so it wont take me another 10 years to get a damn degree.

For my bachelors I had always wanted to go for filmmaking... but now it's a toss up between that and anthropology, biology, communications. Like I really have no idea what I'd like to do or what would be rewarding.

Also, I feel super anxious in class a lot of the time and really hate participating in group discussions, I feel like a freak and I'm afraid to talk to my professor or ask for help.. I'm afraid of failing. : /

i love being in a group but sometimes there are jerks who just don't want to talk with you and that just kills me. i really wanted to fail my former group members because they did not wanted to collaborate with me but i felt sorry for them because i didn't want them to be responsible for my actions and i just want them to know that i do need their full attention if they want to get the job done fast.
i honestly hate math and i nearly failed geometry because of all the proofs and stuff. there were so many ways of proving a triangle that there just couldn't be 1 answer only. math has not been my forte since i first took algebra 1. in algebra 1, i drove my teacher crazy when i asked her a bunch of questions. she was upset and she told my counselor about it and then i got in trouble and then all i could do was ask her a limited number of questions. but i really needed the help and what's the point of learning if you're not going to ask questions?
i hope you do well this year. Good luck on your future endeavors.

[avlady]

yeah, i thought the teachers in grammer school and high school and job questions were supposed to help us. that's what i was taught. then you get in the real world and they just don't want to bother answering our questions. just bad job experiences I wonder?

oh really? I hate having to deal with people like that in the real world. like i know how we should be able to figure out everything on our own, but then it's like i have to work with people that are just too difficult to deal with like the ones that are just sitting there hoping you would plant ideas in their heads and you know just give them work to do when they themselves don't even try to help.

[Leed]

Hi Poptart ~ How about talking with the counselor? They're there to help guide you. Not only that but you sound a bit depressed too, so why not unload a bit?

Don't be afraid to talk to them. That's why they're there. Have a good talk with one of them, and get some things off your chest, or just chat. You sound like you're a nervous wreck!

How about it, huh? Then see how you feel afterwards. they'll probably want to see you regularly until you feel better, which is good. God bless & let us know how you do. Hugs, Lee