[Nightwalker96]

I remember Fall semester, after hours of procrastination, I got thankfully a 90 on my report card which led me to burst in tears because I had dropped 4% and 2% on my transcript.

I vowed to myself that Spring Semester is going to be better but it was WORST EVER TO EXIST. I dropped to 89% in 1st Marking PD, 77% in 2nd Marking PD and the 3rd Marking PD grades are due tomorrow for all the teachers so we could get our report card after State Regents (New York) on June 26th and I am failing in almost all my classes.

I made the gold honor role since freshmen year and this is the end of junior year. I wanted to go to Stanford and now, I am pretty sure I am not going to be accepted at all. I dunno what to do. Stay up all night and complete my work? My parents wouldn't allow.

I have been depressed since last three years and my school social worker finally called this semester to my parents to let me see a psychiatrist. My parents hate that I am ruining their social reputation and no body wants me to get help. Basically, asking for help after twice failed attempts of suicide had been the worst decision. My social worker told me that I may be a bipolar if not clinically depressed.

I don't know how to concentrate. somebody please help me!! I hate the stupid feelings and these awful mood swings. I am hopeless!! I want at least a 90 this Marking Period!!! (3rd Marking PD goes on the transcript of each semester)

[Miswimmy1]

I'm so sorry. It sounds like there are some underlying issues that need to be depressed... you mentioned bipolar and depression? I think that it would be good to see someone and get an official diagnosis. Both of those are treatable disorders and may help you improve your grades once taken care of.

[googley]

Are you in t or seeing a Pdoc? Do your parents know how bad you are feeling. If you don't feel comfortable talking to them, is there anyone else you feel comfortable talking to? Ask for help, you need it.

[Nightwalker96]

Originally Posted by googley

Are you in t or seeing a Pdoc? Do your parents know how bad you are feeling. If you don't feel comfortable talking to them, is there anyone else you feel comfortable talking to? Ask for help, you need it.

I have a chat with my patents after my second failed attempt with suicide but they think I'm doing tis for attention. My mum had made an appointment for evaluation on June 18th bit they want me to wrap this case up since its very humiliating for them. I was seen by a doctor before who diagnosed mania but referred me to a more qualified doctor. I am messing my while life up and if I don't get into even the college I want, there wouldn't be really a purpose to my life!

Originally Posted by Nightwalker96

I have a chat with my patents after my second failed attempt with suicide but they think I'm doing tis for attention. My mum had made an appointment for evaluation on June 18th bit they want me to wrap this case up since its very humiliating for them. I was seen by a doctor before who diagnosed mania but referred me to a more qualified doctor. I am messing my while life up and if I don't get into even the college I want, there wouldn't be really a purpose to my life!

Now that's not true, and I think you know it! This is coming from a university dropout who still finds purpose in life now and again. I have bipolar II, and it does sound like you could have bipolar too. Don't let your parents tell you who you are or what you're allowed to feel. You have your whole life ahead of you. Don't make hasty decisions that you can't regret afterwards, if you know what I'm saying. It's just impossible to know, at your age, how life is going to turn out. It might turn out as badly as you're expecting now, but it probably won't. For most people it doesn't. I can promise you, though, it gets a lot better when your parents start behaving like the good little children they are. And I think they will come to their senses somewhere down the line. We're all children, in a sense. It became clear to me when I was about your age just how childish my parents were. Now I have my own place, and that has made all the difference.

[Perna]

If you have Bipolar Disorder, you have a serious medical problem and you need to get your parents to understand it is not "you" and what you are doing/not doing and that they need to support you and your treatment completely, right away, or things could get worse for their precious social reputation, if not for you:

Bipolar disorder - MayoClinic.com

[JustDontAsk]

I just wanted you to know, I don't think bad grades don't mean much when you are struggling with mental health issues. I did manage to keep my grades at A's while struggling with depression, but school is so easy for me that I barely had to try. If I were you, I wouldn't focus so much on the grades. What I tell myself is, give all your effort, and if you do that, you can't be mad or upset with yourself. I did fine my freshman and sophomore years, but once I hit my junior year, I hit a wall. I was so depressed, I didn't care, I couldn't concentrate...I would take tests and fifteen minutes later couldn't tell you a question on it. I was literally just rolling through the motions. It's definitely not easy. And I can empathize that it seems your parents are not supportive. My mom continually denies that I have issues with anxiety and depression. I've fully accepted it, but she can't, and I don't see my dad near as much as my mom. So that makes it so much harder. If you don't get into Standford (although I hope you do since that's your dream!), I don't think it's going to be the end of the world. It may be tough to accept...But I'm sure everything will work out. But after all this...My best advice to you would just be do your best. If you do this, it is enough, and I have to constantly remind myself of that. I am now just out of high school, graduated as valedictorian, and am looking forward to college in the fall. I just want you to know, you are good enough, and you can get through this. Best wishes!

[Nightwalker96]

Originally Posted by JustDontAsk

I just wanted you to know, I don't think bad grades don't mean much when you are struggling with mental health issues. I did manage to keep my grades at A's while struggling with depression, but school is so easy for me that I barely had to try. If I were you, I wouldn't focus so much on the grades. What I tell myself is, give all your effort, and if you do that, you can't be mad or upset with yourself. I did fine my freshman and sophomore years, but once I hit my junior year, I hit a wall. I was so depressed, I didn't care, I couldn't concentrate...I would take tests and fifteen minutes later couldn't tell you a question on it. I was literally just rolling through the motions. It's definitely not easy. And I can empathize that it seems your parents are not supportive. My mom continually denies that I have issues with anxiety and depression. I've fully accepted it, but she can't, and I don't see my dad near as much as my mom. So that makes it so much harder. If you don't get into Standford (although I hope you do since that's your dream!), I don't think it's going to be the end of the world. It may be tough to accept...But I'm sure everything will work out. But after all this...My best advice to you would just be do your best. If you do this, it is enough, and I have to constantly remind myself of that. I am now just out of high school, graduated as valedictorian, and am looking forward to college in the fall. I just want you to know, you are good enough, and you can get through this. Best wishes!

That's exactly how it happened this spring semester. I am flunking at everything and I don't really know what to do. Thanks again!

[JustDontAsk]

If you're still in high school and in the US, you can try talking to your counselor to see about setting up an appointment with a therapist through the school, that's what I did.