[winterglen]

I just got home from an hour and fifteen minute drive from school and realized I had left behind my notebook.

It seems like I can't even get from one room to another without losing something. Earlier this week I lost my flash drive. When I went to the security office to see if anyone has turned it in, I left behind the novel I was reading and had to go back for it. And I forgot to stop at the mailbox to mail my bills.

I regularly leave the apartment -- and get in the car and start driving -- then realize I forgot to bring something with me, and have to turn around to get it.

I'm just too stupid to take on the simplest responsibility. I wish I had been severely beaten as a kids; maybe if I had, I would behave like a competent human being instead of an entitled, time-wasting brat. I hate myself so much.

[Perna]

You do eventually remember! Memory is a tricky thing but it can be worked with just like other mental skills. I would not bother with calling myself names and thinking bad thoughts about myself as that does not help or "do" anything useful? I would make lists, make signs asking myself "What do you need?" and put them in the car so I would think before I started the car. I would carry around a backpack and not put that down out of my sight and put things in and out of it (I do not understand how you put the novel down when asking if they had the flashdrive?). I would study myself and what sorts of things I forget and "how"/why and think of new games and habits I could try to fix that sort of problem. I would make up songs and poems, etc. about what I was carrying, what I had in my hands, what I was doing, wear my flash drive on a lanyard around my neck, etc.

It sounds like you could be unconsciously forgetting things in order to have a reason to think badly about yourself as in, "I cannot be expected to get good grades because I keep losing things". I would definitely make friends with myself and help myself instead of putting myself down as a "loser".

[Travelinglady]

Please don't get down on yourself for losing things! It seems like you are on a roll at the moment, but sometimes that happens. You could be distracted by matters in your life/worried/ etc. And you might be getting into a vicious cycle!

All the things you mention I have done--or something similar, and many other people have, too. It has nothing to do with being entitled and spoiled. Why would you truly want someone to severely beat you? That would have given you other problems as an adult! I suggest you just be glad you had a great background and be appreciative and help people who haven't been as fortunate, if you can along the way. Don't be so blessed hard on yourself. Okay?

If possible, try to put things where you can see them. Take a minute to take inventory before you rush out of a room. Attach some things to yourself--such as a fanny back for some items, etc.