scared to go back to college

So i was going to school to be a surgical technician and specialize in neuro surgery. after two semesters on the program i began to feel weird like doctors where plotting against me and they just hatted me. so i drop from the programs i was not on meds. but after this episode i got back on meds. i just had a baby so i been off meds for a while . i am planing on going back to school for the same thing but i am not on meds and scared i might relapse but i also dont want to take medicine because i think its what couse my baby birth defect.

Aw honey The only thing you can do is try is out and hope for the best!
Maybe try online classes first!
I have also dropped out due to my bulimia and suicidal ideation and am scared to go back, but I'm trying to look at it as a fresh (medicated) start where I can do even better than before.

Best of luck angel, and congrats on your little one!
xo

Hi, mizzrocio, and welcome to Psych Central! Are you thinking your taking meds during pregnancy caused your child's birth defect? If so, then use really good birth control and go back on your meds. You might not be able to breastfeed, though--and it's true that some of these meds can cause birth defects, but only when the mother takes them while pregnant. That's my understanding, anyway.

So, I suggest you start back on your meds and go back into your program.

Hi mizzrocio,

I know everyone is different, but I have schizoaffective (and PTSD) and would never choose a major that socially involved. I mean, do you ever suffer from slow brain functioning or alogia? I genuinely never want to crush a dream, but can't help but see potential roadblocks. I've been in school for five years, now, and not dropped a single course regardless of my condition at the time, but the way I was able to do that was through research and more research and making serious effort to avoid exacerbating my own symptoms. Are you absolutely sure this major/program is going to make sense over the long term when you genuinely consider your disability?