[Teallembis]

Beware, big rant.


I'm in a panicked state. I know I can fix it slowly, but I've also screwed up so badly. It's making my head reel.

I'm taking 10 hours of online classes while I work to save up money. I'm working 40 hours a week on top of that right now, and looking for a new job. I know I can't afford these hours and school is more important. I'm in the Criminal Justice program at my school and taking two mandatory courses of Study Skills and Intro Computers, which I'm doing fine in. And I'm also doing fine in my Police Operation courses. It's a bit much right now.. but I've also been out of school since 2009. This is a huge jump into hell for me. My constitutional law course unfortunately has sent me flying into the burning pits of death and destruction for my college career. I'll be dropped if I miss 10% or more of my classes, and I've missed a lot in just the last two weeks. My professor posts things late, and doesn't really give any notice. I know I should be checking more often, it's just difficult with my work hours and everything else I have to do.
I'm attempting to create more of a schedule for everything. But right now I just can't get my head in the game. I'm trying to do one thing at a time but it's making me panic still. I have so much due, and so little time, and I've missed so much. I'm terrified of being dropped from the class. This is my first college experience and I'm killing it.
My anxiety is shooting through the roof and I already have high blood pressure problems. I don't have anybody to talk to about anything really... so I'm just flipping out on here. Which I'm sorry for. I just don't want to botch a future I JUST started creating for myself... I really really dont.

I don't really know what to do with myself right now.

[kaliope]

i am not certain if the school you go to is entirely online or local, but even so they should have a disabilities department. i know we dont like to think of ourselves that way, but it this situation it can be an advantage. having your dr or therapist fill out a form you get from the disabilities dept, you can get extra time to do your work and any other accomodations you feel you need to be successful completing your classes. i didnt think i needed any but the dept director insisted i go so my phd wrote extra time to finish assignments, option to leave class if triggered without being penalized and not certain what else at this point. i did use the extra time once. not because i actually needed it, just during midterm week due the anxiety of having several papers due at the same time and tests to study for. i just felt better having a few more days.

so check it out and see if you have that capability at you school and what they can do to help you.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Consider the pass rate - you just need to get over the bar. Can you get through the work just well enough to pass? Sod high grades, you just have to survive. Good luck.

[eeyorestail]

Often when you are that early in a class you can drop it without a grade penalty. Each school has their own cutoff dates, so check yours. One word of warning--often you will only get a partial tuition reimbursement. But if you did this you might be able to start up again next semester with an easier schedule and your head more in the game.

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[KarenSue]

krminja said what I was thinking. I would add only this. I would take fewer classes each semester if necessary; however, I would not allow a semester to roll by without taking at least one. It is much harder to return than to never stop.