[Aracela]

I knew this would happen, but I mever thought they'll ask me to withdraw in the first month of the term. I wanted to continue this term to do better in my grades, because last term I failed one class. Frankly, I'm just really lost and broken. I worked my butt off trying to get accepted only to get kicked out. It's as if my efforts don't even matter because of my marks. It was entirely my fault for letting it slip so low....but I really want to ask myself is this really worth it... I am planning on writing my appeal letter, necause I do have legit reasons on how I got too stressed out, and going to an appointment to see if I have a learning disability. But like I said...I'm just so numb from everything.

[DesigningWoman]

Been there. I know exactly how awful this feels. The only difference is I was an honor student and they booted me because I admitted myself to a psych unit for depression. I had no appeal. I was handed a confidential letter by my college counselor after I cleaned out my dorm room, telling me I wasn't welcome back, not even to see my friends on a visit. I received the top scholarship awarded by the college a year and a half before. So yes I have been there.
Let me say one thing: it is not entirely your fault for your grades. You are battling a very serious illness under tremendous pressure at a tough stage of life. Your numbness may be at least in part from coping with pain and shock. Be kind to yourself.
I would suggest stopping the blame and regret. I spent literally years doing that to myself. It only made getting improving mentally and getting back in school all the more difficult.
You have time, take that time to reassess. Certainly be tested. Remember when you go back to school, when and where you decide, to go to your school's special student services or similar office. They handle accommodation requests. Documented mental illness stress, depression, etc. will be given accommodation. I know it doesn't feel like it, but your life is not over. It is just beginning. A lot of people leave or get bounced from colleges for a huge number of reasons. You are not alone. And those people have gone on to live just fine lives. Just like you can.

[Aracela]

Originally Posted by DesigningWoman

Been there. I know exactly how awful this feels. The only difference is I was an honor student and they booted me because I admitted myself to a psych unit for depression. I had no appeal. I was handed a confidential letter by my college counselor after I cleaned out my dorm room, telling me I wasn't welcome back, not even to see my friends on a visit. I received the top scholarship awarded by the college a year and a half before. So yes I have been there.
Let me say one thing: it is not entirely your fault for your grades. You are battling a very serious illness under tremendous pressure at a tough stage of life. Your numbness may be at least in part from coping with pain and shock. Be kind to yourself.
I would suggest stopping the blame and regret. I spent literally years doing that to myself. It only made getting improving mentally and getting back in school all the more difficult.
You have time, take that time to reassess. Certainly be tested. Remember when you go back to school, when and where you decide, to go to your school's special student services or similar office. They handle accommodation requests. Documented mental illness stress, depression, etc. will be given accommodation. I know it doesn't feel like it, but your life is not over. It is just beginning. A lot of people leave or get bounced from colleges for a huge number of reasons. You are not alone. And those people have gone on to live just fine lives. Just like you can.

I'm sorry to hear that, it must have been extremely difficult =(

For me I still have a chance for an appeal, I'm still in my second year with average grades until last year starting from my spring and fall term. Thank you very much for youe kind words, I only have 12 days until I can send my appeal and I'm basically freaking out over that. I am worried that they won't accept me, and I'm worried that they'll ban me from this university, I'm basically just frustrated right now.

I'm also worried over the fact about the numbers of the dean accepting students back into the university. For my appeal I am planning on writting anout willing to change my major because I believed I made the wrong choice but still stayed in this major. It's eiþer changing my major or upgrading for a year. I'll take anything as long as I don't get a suspension.

[DesigningWoman]

Take a deep controlled breath. Seriously I hyperventilate when I get stressed out. Oxygenate the brain.

Ok, it seems to me most of what you are panicking over are completely out of your control such as the unis response to your appeal or the number of admittances.

Perhaps a better use of all that mental energy is to focus on only what you control, which is writing your appeal letter and taking care of yourself. You have absolute control of putting words in that page, printing it out, and getting it in on time. If you want to switch majors and discuss it, then do. You want to describe the difficulties with your illness, go for it. This is your chance to express yourself, so you can take it.

I would advise writing everything out first, just get it out. Then you can edit it down. Agonizing over word choice, grammar, etc., the first time through is painful and wastes time. After you edit it down, get someone you trust to be honest with you to read it over. The trust part is important, because more than periods in the right place, they can tell you what makes sense, what doesn't, what helps or hurts your case. This person needs to know you and your situation. You also must be willing to take their constructivism criticism.

I know this all feels like a huge, life altering moment.
Regardless of what happens with your appeal, though, you really will be ok. You sound determined, resourceful, and dedicated to getting an education. I promise as a person like that you really can.

[Aracela]

Originally Posted by DesigningWoman

Take a deep controlled breath. Seriously I hyperventilate when I get stressed out. Oxygenate the brain.

Ok, it seems to me most of what you are panicking over are completely out of your control such as the unis response to your appeal or the number of admittances.

Perhaps a better use of all that mental energy is to focus on only what you control, which is writing your appeal letter and taking care of yourself. You have absolute control of putting words in that page, printing it out, and getting it in on time. If you want to switch majors and discuss it, then do. You want to describe the difficulties with your illness, go for it. This is your chance to express yourself, so you can take it.

I would advise writing everything out first, just get it out. Then you can edit it down. Agonizing over word choice, grammar, etc., the first time through is painful and wastes time. After you edit it down, get someone you trust to be honest with you to read it over. The trust part is important, because more than periods in the right place, they can tell you what makes sense, what doesn't, what helps or hurts your case. This person needs to know you and your situation. You also must be willing to take their constructivism criticism.

I know this all feels like a huge, life altering moment.
Regardless of what happens with your appeal, though, you really will be ok. You sound determined, resourceful, and dedicated to getting an education. I promise as a person like that you really can.

I took sometime and finished writing my appeal letter but I don't want to drag my friends into my mess. i'm already ashamed enough that I don't want to approach them anymore, because of my academic standing...

Thank you very much for your support, I don't know what I'll do if I didn't had any reassurance. I'll include my appeal letter in my post incase someone would like to read it.

[Aracela]

I am technically a second year student but I was upgrading for a year to bring up my marks.



To Whom It May Concern
I am writing this appeal letter of my academic dismissal in University of X. Truthfully, I am not surprised, for the past two years I have been in this University, I have done nothing but grieved over my marks, and even more so after receiving the letter of dismissal. I even got a second chance through the Special Academic Probation Program, and I am extremely grateful for that experience, but I would like you to reconsider in keeping me as a student once more.
I am aware that I missed sessions in the STEPS program, and I have no other excuse than me mixing up the times when they are held. I sincerely believed STEPS was a monthly session, not weekly session because I thought it would factor in the Winter term as well. I had made up for three of my missed sessions, when I had two 1on1 meetings with the Student Success Advisors. Even so I cannot provide any other excuse but my own stupidity, it is entirely my fault and I sincerely from my bottom of my heart apologize. I would like to address the circumstances I was under during my two year stay of this University. The first of my circumstances stems on me believing I chose the wrong major, I did not handle my grandmother’s Alzheimer well and I am currently undergoing examination for learning disability. The reason why I chose the English major was because I wanted to become an English teacher in another country, and this resulted in me trying to pass English at J University. I had always struggled with grasping the understanding of the English language, and ran into numerous problems with my writing. I strongly believed that English would help improve my writing, so I could achieve my dream. I know full well that English will never be my strong subject, yet I stubbornly pursued it, and was ecstatic when I finally got a high enough mark in ENGL 1130. This resulted in me finally becoming confident with my English skills and got into the Sociology program in the fall term. But it soon all came crashing down in the Winter term after my Linguistics course and a general education course based off of using our grammar skills, which lead me to spiral into confusion on whether or not I made the right choice in applying for the Bachelors of Arts English program with my gpa from the other insitution's fall term. Although I struggled to keep myself going it proved rather difficult because of my grandma’s deteriorating mental health. My grandma has Alzheimer and would even get lost on some occasions, resulting in my family having to go look for her. Throughout my life I had struggled with learning and was placed in ESL during my elementary age, I understand the subjects but I would sometimes twist the meaning into something entirely different resulting into my confusion. This is usually the case with problem solving in math and English. My greatest success story in my above GPA grades are the ones I used to enter University of X. My gpa was above average and I can guarantee you that I will achieve average grades if I am reinstated. Please understand that my low GPA does not dictate that I am a bad student. I had achieved marks where I have not failed, such as my B in EDU201 and mostly Cs in my other classes, the only classes I have failed are English, which leads to my belief that my understanding and grief over English is dragging me down.
Granted things may seem bleak for me, but if I am reinstated I already made plans for this term. My family had already placed a gps on my grandmother so whenever she gets lost, we can look at the site and retrieve her. My family has also decided to enroll my grandma to an old senior’s care center on the weekdays so she won’t go off on her own. I am also looking into changing my major to either East Asian Studies, Japanese or open studies to bring up my grades. I am doing better now as of this term, by reviewing my class right after it ended instead of cramming all of my class at home. This plan is working because I received a 70% for one of my quizzes using this method. I am extremely grateful for University of X, in giving me such a wonderful experience even during hard times. The professors has been nothing but kind to me, and I am really thankful for their care. I included documentation in assisting my claims in the following attachments and if I am allowed to be on academic probation once more I will assure you that I am able to achieve the same marks I had at J University. I pulled myself from the ground up, and I can achieve it again. I hope you will consider this appeal, and I wish you great health and future.

-Sincerely,
my name

[DesigningWoman]

You wrote what was in your heart. No matter their response you can be proud of your appeal letter. You accomplished what you set out to do, to state your case and appeal for another chance.
It may seem strange but you can take this as a victory. You did your part, even though you were stressed and anxious. You completed what was in your control and did your best.

[Aracela]

Originally Posted by DesigningWoman

You wrote what was in your heart. No matter their response you can be proud of your appeal letter. You accomplished what you set out to do, to state your case and appeal for another chance.
It may seem strange but you can take this as a victory. You did your part, even though you were stressed and anxious. You completed what was in your control and did your best.

It's not good is it... This is what I'm worried about, no matter if I wrote from my hert, I am deathly scared of the dean rejecting my case. I really want to improve on it, I really want to fix my sentence structuring but I really dont know what I saying right in this appeal and what's wrong. Again, thank you for replyīng.

[Aracela]

At this point I just want to now if my appeal is weak or decent but not quite there.

[DesigningWoman]

I know you are very scared. I never said I thought it was "not good". You are letting fear color your perceptions. I do understand. I know this panic. But I see it differently because I am now on the other side.
I think your letter is fine. But my opinion is meaningless in this situation. This is appeal letter is yours. If you feel it needs improvement, keep working. It is truly up to you. If you decide it's done, stop.
you can not through fear or panic change the outcome of this appeal. There are a myriad of factors at play in a decision, most you can not control and don't even know about. Try and do what you can. Get the letter ready to your satisfaction and turned in on time. Then comes the hard part, you have to let it go.
I know it sounds insane, but at that point, It's out of your hands. Severe Anxiety ain't going to change the outcome. It will only change your mood, health, and stability. Try and remember that no matter what the dean of your school decides, you really will be okay.

[alicetailor]

Yes, you should request the school authorities to let you continue. This time, work harder and prove yourself.

[superfly47]

Here's an interesting article that talks about how University often violate federal law in forcing students who have mental illness to leave.

http://www.newsweek.com/2014/02/14/h...th-245492.html

You should look into it more, maybe there is mental illness organization that can help people who are being kicked out for having mental illness. They might help you know if the school is violating the law and what specifically to do about it.

[Aracela]

Originally Posted by DesigningWoman

I know you are very scared. I never said I thought it was "not good". You are letting fear color your perceptions. I do understand. I know this panic. But I see it differently because I am now on the other side.
I think your letter is fine. But my opinion is meaningless in this situation. This is appeal letter is yours. If you feel it needs improvement, keep working. It is truly up to you. If you decide it's done, stop.
you can not through fear or panic change the outcome of this appeal. There are a myriad of factors at play in a decision, most you can not control and don't even know about. Try and do what you can. Get the letter ready to your satisfaction and turned in on time. Then comes the hard part, you have to let it go.
I know it sounds insane, but at that point, It's out of your hands. Severe Anxiety ain't going to change the outcome. It will only change your mood, health, and stability. Try and remember that no matter what the dean of your school decides, you really will be okay.

After a long wait for a reply, the dean rejected my appeal.

At first I wanted to appeal her decision by handing this ruling to the council but I figured it will be better if I just go to another insitution for the upgrade. Frankly, the reason why I was so adamant on staying in this insitution was because I'm afraid of my student record, because I won't be in that competitive faculty anymore.

But you know, since I was struggling with English anyway, I might as well upgrade in another place under a new major. But here's the problem....as embarrassing as it is to say my gpa is incredibly low like beyond the 1.0 mark. It's a 0.97. I already know which courses I will be taking for the new insitution, which are more language and culture courses that I already know.

I already planned out how I am moving forward...and I am kind of shocked to see that I didn't break down yet... But I am still going to all of my classes because I'm afraid that my classmates will find out...

Thank you and I didn't mean to sound to rude...just that I am a lost for words to know how much of a failure I am...