[AHeartOfRuby]

Not a day goes by that I don't sit awake at 12 in the morning tears pooling in my eyes as I try to find a way to get it all done all this work. 5-10 hours of homework and its not enough because oh wait theres more! I don't sleep much, I don't eat much, I have maybe one true friend I tried to set up a time to hang out with someone today and they bailed on me. I am a failure.

"Your room is a mess"

Set aside another hour of my life another day I wont get back like a ticking clock until my heart comes to a stop because I've crushed it under the weight of my stress. Get all As thats what I have to do to get my parents approval nobody likes me because I'm strange because I talk about school to much thats what my stepdad says!

I lost my god damned friends!
I can't do this...
What did I do to deserve this?

Im so tired I now fall asleep in class but my only worry is if a teacher sees and calls my parents because all they'll do is yell at me to get more sleep claim its my fault maybe take away my phone not like I have many to talk to anyway...

You should have more fun.

I

CANT

TAKE

THIS

ANYMORE

[Miswimmy1]

I'm sorry that you are under so much stress. Are you doing actual work or are you just studying in order to get ahead? If you are spending 5-10 hours per day completing assignments, I would talk to your teacher. I'm sure they would appreciate knowing if their class was having to spend that much time (obviously, it was too large of an assignment or the students don't know the material well enough due to lack of teaching).

Do you have a school counselor at your school that you could go talk to? It sounds like this is not something that you can keep at for the rest of the school year. It's vital that you figure out how to regain some balance in your life, because you're right - you can't do this. A school counselor might be able to help you figure out study strategies that could reduce the amount of time you spend on homework, help you with time management, and/or at the very least, assist you in figuring out how to approach your teachers and/or parents about this.

Honestly, the education system is at fault and not you. The schools expect borderline impossible results for high schoolers thanks to the pressures to get good grades to get in a good university and all of the classes they try to cram in on such a short schedule.

The fact of the matter is that you don't need good grades nor do you need to get into a top end Ivy league university to be considered "successful". I would advise any high schooler that I know to take high school easy and not put so much work into getting all As and Bs. Getting good grades by working so hard and not having fun or taking care of your health is not worth the reward in my opinion.

I mean hell, I had around a 2.3 GPA in high school because I genuinely didn't give a damn and I'm doing alright now. When I finished high school, I went to trade school to work as a computer technician for about a year and people who were going into that kind of work were making $12-15 per hour starting pay after only 6-12 months worth of training that cost maybe $300-600 per semester (depending on full time or part time). Now, I am in a community college studying web design that costs around $120 per credit hour that a Pell Grant is covering entirely and giving me around $1400 in refunds of unused money each semester that I'm living comfortably with alongside my part time student job. With options like these out there, I see no real need to get into a good university and bury yourself in debt when there are much cheaper options that don't require you to be miserable in high school and can net you similar opportunities to make a decent living that an undergraduate degree would.

With all that being said, take it easy, K? There is no point in being miserable over a broken education system.

[Travelinglady]

I'm sorry you're so stressed out. There's just too much to do and not enough time to do it, it seems. Yes, I think it's good to consider your priorities. Do you want to go to college? Go to a community college? Get a job when you've finished high school? Go to trade school?

Now just because your friend bailed out does not mean she/he doesn't want to be friends anymore. Okay?

[avlady]

i took 4 online courses and just finished my 3rd one. I was on the computer all day and night to get the classes done in time. i got several good grades so far, but i still have to take a math class that is stressing me out. i saved it for last because it would give me enough time to understand it.Good luck you can do it!!

[AHeartOfRuby]

Originally Posted by Travelinglady

I'm sorry you're so stressed out. There's just too much to do and not enough time to do it, it seems. Yes, I think it's good to consider your priorities. Do you want to go to college? Go to a community college? Get a job when you've finished high school? Go to trade school?

Now just because your friend bailed out does not mean she/he doesn't want to be friends anymore. Okay?

I want to go to college at least 4 years, I’m even considering a doctrine.. I want a job, I have a job that’s part time. I have huge plans.

I know she still wants to be friends it’s just hard I had this friend for three years she’s all I really had and well long story short she’s gone I’m suffering and she’s pretty content. Anyway, one thing she would do a lot was cancel plans last minute and well it’s hard having to face it again even if this other girl means nothing by it.

I’m just going to have to man up and do what’s required I made these choices in life miserable or not things need to get done. I can sit here and cry for an hour but the work isn’t done.

[AHeartOfRuby]

I admitted to a teacher that I have depression. She admitted that my home life is toxic but that my parents are all I've got and since the counselor at school won't help... I have to admit it to them. The only problem is I've tried. And failed miserably. They'll label me as a "copy cat" or an "emo freak wanna be" again. I don't think I can handle that in the state I'm in.. so the other option is to just live in this misery I guess until I hit rock bottom and they have no choice but to believe me.

[Travelinglady]

Dear one, depression doesn't mean failure in my book. Sometimes it's a normal response to life circumstances.

[AHeartOfRuby]

One. Small. Cut. I relapsed today...
I also talked to a different school counselor today he was very understanding it felt great to be actually listened to. I am really struggling with keeping my mental health out of my social life I'm legit ruining friendships before they've started.
I'm not okay but I don't know how to explain it to my teachers without just pinning it on my month ago loss of all my "friends" and the discrimination against my disability.
School is becoming overwhelming.
Is this rock bottom?