Change mind like the weather

I never spoke of my achievements.
Fred shot me down
And said oh well, in sport
If you are not first
You are last.
I went to a different club
Because the coach said
To mum what she wanted
To hear in past tense
And because It was
Lunchtime and I was present
Reading in the living room.
I WAS talented.

I went to a different club
But all they did
Was keep asking me
To invite my boyfriend
To the classes too.
But Fred would never
Go with me because
I would have been better
After all I trained for 8 years.
He went with his pals
To super dry gym
As they were all beginners
He would say "witty" boys banter
Like that hour wasn't
Enough to sweat out ah
The drink from oor weekend.
My mum and dad found
Him really arrogant
When I introduced him.
He was a bit conceited
He was quiet and difficult
To hold conversation with.
But he certainly wasn't shy.

i hope you do go home for awhile, things change and maybe they understand better, if not you can leave and say you gave it a try. i like your writing too.

Going at twice the speed
Limit - 120 miles an hour
And over taking
Is a lot more dangerous
Than letting a snowboard
Roll down a gradual slope.
But Fred always twisted
My transgressions into
Being far worse than his.
Throwing a remote control
Was worse than breaking
Someone's ribs?

My friend asked me why I stayed with Fred. She had a boyfriend who was similar when we were the same age. I said that a lot of boys must get insecure with their first serious girlfriend . I think more so where intimacy is involved. I only said the first part.
But hers wasn't violent and threatening like Fred. I said that you take the good with the bad, especially if you have been in hospital. I was no longer perfect. I never was perfect but I had a condition, I had been unwell. So I accepted a not so perfect relationship.

It was not necessary
To get the rugby player
To do a bear hug.
Or to a make a fool
Of me when I said
Hello stranger to bear paw
And go off on a tirade
Saying he had a
Family and a FULL time job.
It was just me acknowledging
I hadn't seen him in ages!
My father used to sit
And tell me that
Women are not built
To do what men can do.
I knew my limitations.
And I didn't give a hoot
That I would never
Be a marine or go in a submarine.
I don't even like camping.
I like my home comforts.
I like to paint my nails.
I like to follow fashion.
I can walk in heels.
I don't want muscles.
I cry at films.

I just made a flippant joke.
Because I all ready
Knew from the red man
Exercise where we had
To lay flat and to
Have a dead weight
On top would take sheer
Brute strength to escape from.
I was just tying to lighten
A dark subject.
And you made me feel
Like someone is absolutely helpless
If they ever came across
A man who was
Big in stature.
In martial arts
We are trained to aim
For weak points
To defend ourselves .
And you basically said
That I was a muppet
Living in fairy land.
With the right training
I think if the right place
Is struck there is a chance.
Anyone can be caught off guard.
If it was a date rape attempt
There are objects
In the home.
You teach martial arts
But you turn around
And say there is no chance?
Well of course this man
Was double my size,
Any man or woman
Would have struggled.
If I stuck a key or knife
Into my attackers thigh or neck
When he comes from behind
There is a chance.
What use is martial arts
When someone has a weapon
If you want true reality.
And often men who
Commit rape crimes
Are often on illegal substances
And can turn into
Rabbid animals and
The random victim is done for.
Many sexual crimes are
Planned and the perpetrator
Has been Stalking their chosen victim.
Waiting for their moment.
And most of the time
It is someone we know.
And if it is more than
One man, well your
Only chance is to
Run and scream,
If you do not freeze
Tonic immobility