[JayJay2]

I am trying to write my story (on the computer) to help with trauma, but it is very complex and traumatic and I am struggling to write, I get to a dead end where depression or traumatic memories stop me from writing, and guilt, because the people who have hurt me told me it was my fault and tried to make my trauma and pain out to be insanity (and failed).

Has anyone got any advice as to how to cope with writing.
I am sure that it will help me to write it and what I have written so far has helped me.

[NoCake]

There comes a time in life where we must question the things we thought we knew - the things that we were told to believe. Perhaps today is your day.

[JayJay2]

Originally Posted by NoCake

There comes a time in life where we must question the things we thought we knew - the things that we were told to believe. Perhaps today is your day.

I do question everything and I get in a muddle as to what is my fault and what isn't, I need to get it written in order to get it out of my head and onto paper.

Sit down and write a list of life events...a title per se, no detail given, and not just the bad, traumatics ones but the good ones too as few and far between as they may sometimes appear. Just a few words that you know what the event is. Cover as many of the events of your life as you can. Not necessary to put them in order though maybe number them in order at some point. Pick one a day to write about....maybe more if you start getting in to it. Pick the easier ones to write about first. Hopefully writing those will gear you up, make it a little more easier to write about the more difficult ones. When you do start writing about the difficult ones, take frequent breaks, possibly pick another easy one to write while you're allowing yourself time to calm down or readjust to writing about the hard one. It still won't be easy, but once you get in to the habit of writing with the easier events the harder ones should come out a little smoother. Good luck.

[BLUEDOVE]

In your writing,have a separate piece of paper or
pad,and put down 2 headings:1.Compliance,and
2.Non-Compliance.
These are the things 'THEY'
would have approved/allowed, or disapproved/
disallowed.
Last week,I was angry at someone,
and afterwords felt as small as a crumb,and in
great despair. I first misdiagnosed self as being
depressed,then was reading a book by a
psychologist who raised that concept of compliance and non-compliance---yep, there it
was, I was feeling awful because I had just
went against THE PARENTS NO ANGER RULE!
Jesus,it was like lifting a concrete block off my
shoulders. So do check that any guilt,in fact,
BELONGS to you,or is imprinted by parents.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE