failure (might trig.)

i know its been awhile since my last post but i really just need to get this out.
i feel like such a failure,not only to myself but to everyone around me. im trying to layup on the cutting but i can only go for maybe 2-3 days before it gets to much and i go back. it feels so good when im doing it but when im done i feel like ive let myself down. im also trying to help one of my friends who also si's and i cant do anything for her. i try to be there for her and i try to be that person for her to talk to but im not. it seems like i only bring more problems to her and she never wants to talk about whats bothering her.i failed to be that person for her to go to if she cant even talk to me. im also failing several classes in school and have yet to tell my parents because they will kill me once they find out. i guess what im trying to say if i fail at life.

sorry for just wasting the time of those who read this.

max

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There is grace.. there is compassion. We face obstacles in life that can influence our behavior. We don't judge you. I hope you don't judge yourself. Failure.. is not something that I would call anyone. Its not a label that you can wear. Reaching out makes you a survivor and an overcommer. Continue to do what you can to move towards healing.
You are in my prayers

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EV's right, everything she said. Please come back and share, you're never a waste of time dear.

Take care,
Kimberly.

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You are never wasting our time. I really enjoy talking to you in chat, you seem like a sweet person and I wish I could be more of a help to you. I know my son would enjoy playing computer games with you if you lived near us. Keep posting and sharing, thats what we are here for.

Take care,
Leslie

hope u find the courage and guidance u need to quit.

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It never was a failure, you just slipped up is all. Even stopping cutting for three days is an achievement and you should see it as that. Also, I'm sorry about you struggling to help your friend. I know you must really want to help her but sometimes you just have to put yourself first and make yourself stable before you can help others. I think helping your friend is putting you under unnecessary pressure here. I think as long as you are there for her and she knows she can talk with you and you not judge her, that's all you have to do .

hope you feel better soon.

thank you all for your replies.today at school we had an assembly about teenage suicide and if that wasnt enought my english teacher had us read a story about suicide and write an essay about it. i feel like such ***** right now and my mom is on my case about some lyrics i wrote down. im sorry to say that i cut today.things werent good to begin with but now they are going even farther downhill.

max

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That must have been so triggering for you

I'm sorry. I hope things improve for you soon.

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I only just read this today. I'm so sorry for all the hurt you're going through. I wish there was morre i could say, but i just can't think up any words right now.

But what EV said was good.

please take care.