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I haven't cut in over three years (yea!) but I still think about it every day. It isn't even always so much of a cohesive thought, as it is a feeling. I know that if it stays where it is right now, I wont injure, it doesn't get that bad. But I was wondering if the thoughts ever go away. I am getting a new T because I moved and wonder how much to say about it. I had a kind of understanding with my last T that I would bring it up when it became troublesome or bothersome or changed significantly in any way, but otherwise I didn't want to spend a lot of sessions talking about it as there were other things that seem more important. It is the same thing with thoughts about suicide. They are there but not bothersome. In some way it seems like they have become a habit of some sort that I can't get rid of. I try to brush them off when they come and it usually works. What is happening to me? Will they ever go away totally?
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Googley, I literally came into this forum hoping that there was a post about just this topic. In many ways, I find myself in a similar position to where you are now. I haven't SI'ed in quite some time (5 or so months), yet there isn't a day that goes by where the thought doesn't pop into my head. Similarly, suicidal thoughts will randomly come too.... for example, I was fishing at this beautiful location with lots of cliffs and waterfalls, and very non-chalently, I thought "gee that would be perfect to jump off of to end everything." Its almost as though I have these half-hazard intentions that linger in the background surrounding SI - or other variants - yet I'm not sure what to do/think of them.
As for your new T, I would pretty much explain what you have already mentioned - that thoughts of SI are still in part in your life, however, you wish only to discuss them when they are at the forefront of what you are struggling with at the time. I don't think there is anything "wrong" with you for feeling this way (though I can see how one might perceive this to be a very bias opinion ![]() When in doubt... talk it out with your T. ((((((hugs))))))) J
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