[uhhidk]

I've been doing really well these past few months and I haven't been cutting. But lately I've been getting thoughts about cutting again, how much relief I'll get from it, how much better I'll feel...

I don't know how much longer I can go without cutting. I don't want to start again; I'm scared I'll do more harm to myself than I intended to.

[zooropa]

I know how hard that is. Just remember, a thought is only a thought & not a fact, you don't have to act on it. Sometimes that helps me.

[uhhidk]

Just a quick update; I gave in. I cut tonight. The guilt is just starting to set in. I was doing so well too.

[zooropa]

I just went through this last week, and I gave in and cut after going about 6 weeks w/no SI prior to that. I know how hard it is to keep from doing it, especially once those thoughts set in & just won't go away. And then, once you do it and the initial 'high' has worn off, the guilt can set it.
When I talked to my T about this last Mon, after my SI incidents on Sun, she said not to be so hard on myself, it was just an thing, I did it, and it doesn't have to be more than that. Somebody here on PC said something that has really stuck with me, too, and that is, it doesn't *have* to be a crisis, it's only a crisis if I MAKE it a crisis, if I want to I can make it just an "oops", just a moment, you know?
So, try not to spend a lot of time with those guilt feelings. You fell down, everybody does sometimes. You can start again from here. First with one hour of not cutting, then 2 then, and on like that.
Hope that helps a little bit.

[Sannah]

Hi uhhidk, do you understand what is causing your urges? Are you in therapy?

[uhhidk]

Thanks to everyone for your support.

zoopra: Yeah, that helped a lot. Thanks =D

Sannah: I'm not in therapy, no, but I do understand what causes my urges. If something happens (say, an argument with a family member or my depression hits an all time low) that stresses me out really badly, I feel the need to cut. I've been getting better but lately lots of things have been happening that are simply out of my control. It's difficult for me to handle sometimes.

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by uhhidk

Sannah: I'm not in therapy, no,

but I do understand what causes my urges. If something happens (say, an argument with a family member or my depression hits an all time low) that stresses me out really badly, I feel the need to cut.

Therapy would help you learn how to deal with these stressors so that you don't need to SI.............