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#1
Mar 05, 2010, 05:35 PM
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I can't beleive it, I did SI and I want to SI more. I thought I was strong enough to stop but some how, that didn't happen. Hill just got in the control seat, and took control. I know it sounds weird but, it does happen. I just don't know who long I can take all of this. I tried to not SI but, It did happen. And now, I want to do it another way, just not cut.... but, I want to hurt, I want things to go dull, I want things to get better, I don't want all of this. I hate having to keep posting here. I hate the feelings I have. I hate HILL! I can't deal with all of this... I just.... want it to end.... end the suffering.... let the healing begin..... but how.... how can I tell those that can help... How???
How much longer can I deal with this? How much longer will it take to....? Can't even say it. All I want to do is go from Cold to HOT until it starts to burn... I want to heel the temp change, I want to stop Hill from doing it. Hill wants to SI more than anything. What can I do now?? How much can i handle? |
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#2
Mar 05, 2010, 07:33 PM
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puzzclar, learn, forgive and move on. Please keep on posting. You are a good person.
Has Hill been introduced to your therapist? |
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#3
Mar 06, 2010, 12:43 PM
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Yes, and she did NOT like it, and it cause a lot of anxiety and stress between us.
Apparently Once wasn't enough... and she still wants more. GRR |
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#4
Mar 06, 2010, 03:18 PM
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I'm sorry you are going through this. If you need anyone to talk to I'm here just pm me.
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Mar 06, 2010, 09:16 PM
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anyone ever been afriad of doing SI when it seems like it's the only thing that may help?
Tried Yoga, Tried distractions, tried keeping my mind busy, tried music, tried Tapping, what's next to try.... |
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#6
Mar 07, 2010, 12:06 AM
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I'm wondering that myself. What else is there to try to distract yourself when nothing else works. I'm here for you if you ever wanna talk. I know I'm doing the same thing but we can be there for eachother.
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#7
Mar 07, 2010, 12:14 PM
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Puzz, Hill needs to be heard and you both need to learn to work together. Your T needs to know everything if you can manage that. Please be safe.......
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#8
Mar 07, 2010, 02:31 PM
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Safty was a concern this morning. NOw, Hill is a low roar in my head, a good thing but it came with a price, of SI. I don't like this at all. I'm going to work on some written things for my T, that way I don't have to say it out loud, unless it comes to that. I do see my T on Tuesday. I just hope that I don't SI again. I tried to give it up once, but since the I have done it 9 times in just a month. Yes it is less then others but, it's still to much. WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE SO HARD?
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#9
Mar 07, 2010, 09:22 PM
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Quote:
__________________
Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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