[LyDiaHate]

Last night i went to hospital again to Have stitches in my arm and i was not phased at all when i cut myself i do it real deep and panic and scare myself but last night i didnt even care i was just staring into space when i my dad was calling me it was like i came out a dream..I keep getting horrible headaches from crying and if something bad happens i think everything in my life has changed ??????
I keep having horrible thoughs and i force myself to think about them they make my skin crawl but i keep thinking about the thoughs of insects crawling on my leg and once i even saw it i feel like a phyco
I dont know what to do I did not see my therapist i dont think anybody can help me i think i will get sectioned
Im really Phycotic i wish i was normal i really really do but sometimes i think im normal but then i get these thoughs and moods and i know im just a phyco..!!
sometimes i cant even be bothered to cry im such a mess.
I cant belive how much i have ruined my life and what i have tunred out like i hate this so much ..!!!!!!!!
Self harm is the only thing tha makes me feel alive..and i Have to take the pain or i am real weak i am so mad .

[caring_whiterose]

I think there are other things you can do to not self harm. If you can focus you energy on something you like to do (not cutting) it might help. Maybe call your T, call a friend and go hand out. You can even draw, walk, write anything to take you mind off hurting you. (((((((((((ly))))))))). You don't deserve to be hurt so don't hurt you also. Stay strong. We are all here for you.

Originally Posted by LyDiaHate

Last night i went to hospital again to Have stitches in my arm and i was not phased at all when i cut myself i do it real deep and panic and scare myself but last night i didnt even care i was just staring into space when i my dad was calling me it was like i came out a dream..I keep getting horrible headaches from crying and if something bad happens i think everything in my life has changed ??????
I keep having horrible thoughs and i force myself to think about them they make my skin crawl but i keep thinking about the thoughs of insects crawling on my leg and once i even saw it i feel like a phyco
I dont know what to do I did not see my therapist i dont think anybody can help me i think i will get sectioned
Im really Phycotic i wish i was normal i really really do but sometimes i think im normal but then i get these thoughs and moods and i know im just a phyco..!!
sometimes i cant even be bothered to cry im such a mess.
I cant belive how much i have ruined my life and what i have tunred out like i hate this so much ..!!!!!!!!
Self harm is the only thing tha makes me feel alive..and i Have to take the pain or i am real weak i am so mad .

[puzzclar]

Personaly, I don't think you will get sectioned. Reasons being you are NOT in an real danger. As long as you dont say you are going to hurt yourself you should be able to stay away from being sectioned. I do agree with Caring, try and find some thing to get your mind of things. It will be hard, but its do able. Good luck and keep us posted.

[Sannah]

Getting really involved in good therapy is vital here Lydia. You need to take healing into your own hands and do whatever you can to get better. Get help from your therapist, here and wherever else you can find help.

[jennaorgana]

caring is right. you are going to have to find other things to deal with issues besides SI. you can do it. i think there are several threads about it.

and posting here should help. post here and ask for help and someone will talk to you.