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i absolutely hate my family. every day my mom causes drama. my dad has walked out on us countless times because of her. everytime she blames it on me. I don't even blame my dad at this point, i see the way my mom is. She has abused me for 7 years and i can't say a single thing about it. she always told me if i told anyone she would put me in a horrible orphanage or something. she has beaten me, mentally and emotionally abused me. i am sick and tired of her bs. I try to talk to my dad and she plays us against each other. She always overplays every little thing i do to the point where he doesn't even ask me what happenend anymore. My mom is such a drama queen that she will not get out of bed for days if someone stands up to her. im absolutely sick and tired of this. i just want to plunge a knife into my arm until i can't even feel it anymore.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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I'm so sorry you are going through all this hun! I know of a person like that myself. You shouldn't have to go through all of this. You deserve so much better. Which I can't really talk cause I'm dealing with a lot of that myself. But just know that we are here for you. And if you ever need to talk you can pm me. I'm usually on here all the time and I will pm you back as soon as I get. I wish the best for you hun!
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I know exactly how you feel. I was and still am abused by my parents. You have to understand that it's not your fault.
Do you have someone to talk to about all of this? |
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i do have some people i can talk to, i don't like to talk to them though. everytime i do i feel like their image of me changes and they have their own problems to deal with without my drama.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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Your mom sounds mentally ill. She is the problem, not you. Do you think that there is any way that you can withdraw yourself from her drama? Refuse to be drawn into it? Just sit back, listen, watch, walk away but don't get pulled in? You know, you don't have to convince her of anything. You don't have to convince anyone of anything. Explaining/defending yourself to someone who will just twist it is a bottomless pit. It will suck the life out of you.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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How does she do this?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
#8
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insult me, demoralize me, scream at me until i can't take it anymore.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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Can you leave the room?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Is there somewhere you can go when you can't take it? Perhaps a friend's house?
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im 14, i don't think i can
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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Can you call the local domestic violence? Or do you have any other family that you could stay with?
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no probably not, they haven't hit me recently. and i don't have any family i am close with.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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Oh ok. I'm so sorry hun. I hope it gets better for you!
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thanks! i just gotta wait it out, only 4 more years right.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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Care to make an anonomous report directly to Child Protective Services? You can do it on line. I googled Child Protective Services and my state and their website came right up. Make it honest and make it detailed. This is no way to live. I am so sorry you are having to go through this.
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Could you talk to a teacher at school or a counselor? Tell them exactly what is happening. Do you have a good friend who's parent you could talk to? Can you lock yourself in your room to keep you mom away from you when she is being abusive?
I'm so sorry that you are having to experience this. Please ask for help IRL. Those of us here are happy to give you support and the advice we can, but there is only so much we can do on line. Please let us know how it is going. I went through a similar thing with counting down the years until I was 18. Please get help now if you can. I didn't and regret it. Remember that you are strong and what your mom says is about her, not about you. ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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thanks so much guys =D
im ok for now, but i have talked to friends in the past about moving out of my parents house. we agreed that it should be an absolute last resort and i should try to wait it out though. and im afraid my school doesn't have a counselor, and im new at school ive had to transfer due to social issues so i don't know any teachers well enough to trust them
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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What social issues made the change in schools necessary?
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the first change was cause i was getting jumped and didn't fight back.
i kind of miss that school cause i had friends there who i don't see anymore. second change was cause that school just didn't work for me, it was waay too highstrung. the school im at right now is ok but whenever i feel depressed my grades suffer and my parents are talking about boarding school right now.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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You know, boarding school would be a vast improvement over your homelife. My brother and sister-in-law have bad parenting skills and were having problems raising my neice. She is your age and loves the boarding school she's at. I keep in touch with my neice through facebook. She is much happier now.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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THey wouldn't have chess tournaments there?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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I know exactly how you feel about this.....except I don't have a Dad....I had a friend I could talk to who was an adult but my would also overplay everything that happened with me....although she has never threatened to put me in an orphanage, she keeps talking about how if I told someone she would kick me out and no one would ever take me in because of how bad of a person I am and how irresponsible I am.
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![]() sorry im not perfect sorry im not true sorry im not happy sorry im not you sorry im not there sorry im not that extraordinary sorry im not thin sorry im just ordinary sorry im outspoken sorry i dont share sorry i dont need you sorry you were never there sorry im not comfortable sorry your the same sorry that i dont change sorry im not game sorry im here sorry i wont be gone sorry you dont care for me sorry if im wrong sorry for what im about to do sorry but i cant stay sorry but ive gotta leave sorry im just running away Just Sorry |
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i travel around the country to tournaments like nationals, states and many other tournaments that i might not be able to go to anymore.
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel Like Im close to something real I wanna find something ive wanted all along Somewhere I belong? he who does not feel me is not real to me Therefore he doesn't exist So poof...vamoose you sob What's wrong with the world, mama People livin' like they ain't got no mamas I think the whole world addicted to the drama Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma And to discriminate only generates hate And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now. i'm not afraid to take a stand Everybody come take my hand We'll walk this road together, through the storm Whatever weather, cold or warm Just let you know that, you're not alone Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony |
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