[(JD)]

For those who frequent this forum... know that others read here and care about you. I, personally, feel bad when you feel the need to hurt yourself. I know this might sound strange from someone who carries suicidal ideation in her pocket, but we all know it's a different issue.

Feel better.

[Miss_A]

Heart broken does that answer your question...

How are you sky most of all?

[Hope4me2]

SKY
I feel so lonely and empty today..............missing my T and will not see him for 14 days UGHy is my other feeliing...........I HATE hurting myself but sometimes it is the only way to get my hurt out...........hard to explain but thanks for asking how I am today.\
How are you doing SKY?
take care

[Rapunzel]

Sky, it always feels good to me when you ask how we're doing over here.

As you know, I just got back from a conference in Colorado. I had to take turns with the computer at the hotel, so didn't have as much on-line time as I would have liked. When I realized I had internet access, one of my first thoughts was all the catching up I could do on PC, but I thought wrong. Anyway, I was still writing to T while I was there. I finally decided to tell her, afterall, about slipping up a couple of weeks ago, because I felt guilty not telling, so she's been asking me about why I wanted to tell her the things I did. Nope, she didn't seem to accept the felt guilty explanation. And she's taking next week off, so now it will be a while, and she's leaving me with a direction to try again (again) to think about why I wanted to tell her what I really didn't want to tell her but did anyway. I'm confused, so if you're not following this, it's probably not you.

Thanks for the support that you give, here and elsewhere.

[Fuzzybear]

((((Sky))))

Fuzzy


Thanks for the post!

[wi_fighter]

I read too, but I just don't know what to say in support of everyone.

[seeker1950]

I am doing very well. No tendency to physically harm myself since that one episode, but I do still have visualizations of stabbing myself in the heart, particularly at bedtime when trying to go to sleep. But I am beginning to analyze what triggers these feelings, and talk to myself when it happens. Also, I am involved in very happy, healthy activities now, on a daily basis (grad classes in Art), and it is a true blessing. As a result of this, I do have faith that any residual bad thoughts of the cause of this will gradually diminish, and, happily, the man who was the catalyst for it will be unimportant....in fact!! I already feel that way more and more each day.
Seeker

[hereiam]

Sky, you're a lovely person for asking.

I'm doing good now. Still haven't cut since I publicly declared my quitting (I usually tell other people when I'm serious about qutting/doing something so that way I have to do it as to not disappoint them and through that myself). I haven't had much of an urge, but I know it'll come soon and when it does i'll be here, hopefully with some of you, ready to fight it off. I'm tired of marking my body.

As for everyone else, I wish you all the best in health and recovery!

How are YOU doing, Sky?

[(JD)]

Golly, thanks for asking about me. Day to day... also.... sigh. I don't usually take on other's issues in the sense of feeling bad... but wanted you all to know that it does sadden me that you deal with this... self hate... resistence to healling... trying to cope with whatever it is that attacks your feelings. And I know most ppl just don't understand it... well, most ppl IRL don't understand many mental health issues... but they seem to be reactive in a shocking way if they find out you SI. Just wanted to remind you that some of us do understand... and have hope and good wishes for you all! You can get through this, past it even... keep looking up!

[BamaSurvivor]

Todays not a very good day... Having fears of death that bother me and my Sponser is moving and can no longer be my sponser, so I'm missing her and sad that she's leaving. I'm dealing, though. Trying not to harm myself. Thanks for asking, Sky... Hope all is well with you.((((Sky))))

[(JD)]

Aw sorry to hear this... did she leave you with ideas for a new sponsor? There must be someone who can help keep you on track.... sending good wishes your way..

[Hope4me2]

Feeling ok today Sky.............had a rough day yesterday........felt so bad from Friday night when everyone at a get together was asking about my arms.....I felt so BAD that yesterday I could not shake the bad feelings and I SIed really bad on my stomache.........I am missing my T so much too
he is on a much needed vacation but it is still hard for me. though.....

[BamaSurvivor]

She gave me a few peoples' names to check out for sponsership but I just don't know. She was the best.