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I'm only 14, but I have no idea what is wrong with me. I have an amazing best friend, a great boyfriend, and loads of other good mates. My family do love me. But I'm just miserable all the time and have been for a year. I don't know if I'm depressed or not, but I do feel it. I self harmed for about 6 months and stopped last month for my current boyfriend, but I have recently been getting urges to cut myself alot more recently. I cant cope, In class I stare at the scars on my wrist and sometimes find my self touching them without realizing.
My best friend knows I used to self harm and was so proud of me when I finally stopped, I really don't want to disappoint her, but I cant help thinking about it. I am starting to fail in school again, and having arguments with my family, the same as before I self harmed about 6 months ago. I really don't want to go down that road again...But I'm scared I wont have any control or release if I don't hurt myself. Please, please help me. |
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Livvy, are you in therapy?
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im 14 as well.
the stress of school, home and everything can get really overwhelming at times. a few things i recomend snapping a rubber band on your arm, its a trick a friend of mine told me. it really helps me control the urge of cutting without doing any real damage listening to music drawing writing, expressing your self reading your favorite books something that almost always helps me is calling a friend and being completely open and talking about whats bugging me.
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Try and get help now to overcome your need to self harm. Getting older it only gets worse....if you don't learn good coping skills now when things get even more stressful you won't know how to deal (like me). You're young...take good care.
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See a therapist, a guidance counselor at school, someone, ANYONE, listen to Katileena it only gets worse. You need help, and you are so very lucky to have such a good friend.
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Yeah, I see what you mean. Anybody else would say I have a great life; a lot of friends (and some really good ones at that), nice things, talented and I do well in school just by showing up basically, people think I'm good-looking, etc.
But, I don't see any of that. I feel lonely, I always feel like I'll fail the test or fail an audition even though I end up suceeding, I always feel ugly, and I always feel sad. I guess I have really low self-esteem, I dunno. Cutting is insanely hard to stop, the only way you can really do it is find a spark of happiness to carry you through your bad times. Like, if you're going to cut, think about your boyfriend and how much he means to you. Or realize it's not worth it and the only thing it does is give you more pain. |
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