[hereiam]

i did something stupid tonight (not related to SI)

and im tired

and now i feel like this could be my only release. i never thought i might be 'addicted' to cutting, yet now im finding myself constantly fighting the urge. more so than when i actually did it. and i dont get it, nor do i like it. even though ive been thinking about it more often than not, ive decided that i will probably never actually tell a T. i dont see how i could, or would know how to find the words. id be disgusted with myself, ashamed of what i did, and horribly hurt by the fact that im positive a T would judge me - even if they claim they don't. i mean hello? a T is a person too. a T is a person like you, like me, like your family or friends. they are humans. and it is human nature to judge or be afraid of something that you aren't sure of. a T would be like that.

this sucks. im sorry, ya'll. i dont mean to ***** and moan, im just stuck between a rock and a hard place.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Wow lucky you you get me this late at night..I seldom cut but have ...Can you say what you did? AND what is MEH? Sorry I don't know all the abbrevations....

On telling your T..they hear it all the time and go to school and read about it..I do not think they judge..I do not judge but I do put people in like catagories....much like a dx.......For example pet hater..still like the person and see ALL of them but would not have them to a party of pet lovers....I do not think T's really Judge....your dx would be more honest...

[Miss_A]

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Meh meaning like you don't care. But still I think some one should care. Their are other safe methods to make you feel more comfortable. I know what you mean the ugre is strong to do so. But when you do it's do late to realise what you've done and guilt starts to build up. All I can say right now is listen to music, I find it calming even rock to listen close to the words and just sit there thinking and maybe singing lol.

[Fuzzybear]

I think it is ok to ***** and moan sometimes.... and anyway, who are we to judge you?

Take care,
Fuzzy

[fgh]

rocking's for babies. what's wrong with cutting i mean other than the scars because it sure beats feeling rotten if you ask me but then nobody asked me. you do what you gotta do that's the way i feel about things and if i get time and that's what needs to be done then i do it. Not like i'm some great scientists who is gonna create some new contraption in my time out you know? T still doesn't know why i'm around i think he said that butthen he says stuff like he does know. meh. huh? i could dig that. nona.