Reasons Not To

Usually I stay busy anyway I can - read books, do homework, study, work... sometimes it's hard to focus on staying busy though, but being outside helps - the wind on my face, the fresh air flowing through my lungs, some of the only times I feel alive <3

It would only be short term relief, and feed long-term depression... painful scars, more torturous thoughts... Never worth it <3

Because it makes me question my mind too much.

In-case it helps anyone that uses this thread:

Hey I am new here but this thread has really helped me, everyone hit on similar things I feel but I need to write this out for myself (since I really feel like SIing right now)
1.) My therapist would be incredibility upset and feel like she failed me and wasnt there for me
2.) It would turn into the horrible cycle it was for so many years, I wouldnt be able to stop because I would lose hope in myself for starting it again
3.) My mom would be disappointed in me and feel like she is a failure to me
4.) It would harm me helping others, I want to be a therapist and if I lose control again I wont reach my potiental in helping others
5.) I would be so disappointed in myself and feel like an utter complete failure and just want to do it more and it would make my depression worse and I would feel more hopeless
6.) Last time I cut myself in a fit of anger I did a number of myself and went too deep and should have got stiches and it was horrible
7.) I would end up in the hospital again
8.) It wouldnt solve any of my problems or heal the pain
9.) I told my boss that this was in the past and I am beyond it
10.) The only person I would be harming is myself

I don't understand how?

Thanks for this forum to talk about things that most people don't want to hear about. Recently, I was extremely distraught about my job. I was seriously considering shooting my foot off with a gun (so I would not have to work anymore). I pondered this for about two and a half days. Finally, I decided not to because my therapist was frequently telling me she was proud of me. I was kind of proud of me too for the progress I had made. I finally decided I did not want to loose what I had gained!!!

That's fantastic seeker The feelings and urges can be strong sometimes but they do pass in time, and with encouragement. Hang in there

I am not worried about the self-harm part; I am just absolutely scared shitless of the consequences and the emotions after.
- AJ

In the nicest possible way, others seeing you self harming is also damaging to them too. Like your kids for example, if they see you are self harming... they could possibly think they have done something wrong (specifically younger children) and also could think this is a good thing and could be taught the habit.

Of course, it's ones choice if they want to do it... but always be careful of who you are also damaging in the long run.

I have my injuries on my hand, and my son had seen them by accident, course I thought i
wuz doing a pretty good job of hiding it. He looked at my hand and said mommy
got boo boos", then he ran a got a band aid and put it over them. I do not cut I burn.

nycgal - it is sweet that your son is so protective of you. That is adorable

One of the reasons I haven't burned myself in a while is because of my job. I'm required to wear a t-shirt for work and if a customer or my supervisors saw the scars, I'd probably be in trouble.

But I think a good reason for not hurting yourself is that it's not worth it. Why hurt yourself over someone who's not worth it? If someone is making you feel ******, especially if they're not close to you, then they're basically nothing. Why let a ****** person like that have control over your life? You're not hurting them by doing it, you're only hurting yourself.

Sounds hard on not only the child, but you as well. Stay strong for your three year old if you can't figure out anyone else.

1) you can get carried away and accidentally commit suicide
2) getting sent to or sent back to mental ward
3) hurting friends or family members emotionally by hurting your self physically

We should treat people's bodies with respect and compassion and, well, aren't we people too? I try not to reinforce my negative self views by acting negatively towards myself. It doesn't always work, but I try. I hope this helps someone else...

My fiances two year old saw the nasty, large, long recent scars on my leg and asked me what happened. I can't lie to her but I certainly cannot tell her. My reason to try to stop SI: so my fiancé isn't sad when he sees it and I don't have to keep lying to everyone else around me and the two children that changed my life for the better the day I met them.

1. Feeling worse after you do it...
2. Having to admit to your therapist you did it again
3. One step forward two steps back
4. Having to see the scars everyday
5. Controlling blood loss
6. Rubbing on clothing

My son...

Thats one more mark on my body that tells a story I rather make a different memory.

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My best friend.

I was so so close to relapsing today. I held the blade in my trembling hands. Then, for some reason, I went back to my messages with my best friend from the summer 2013. I read our conversation from the day I nearly took my life. Her messages from them still help me today. I read them and then put the blade away. I can't do this to her. I can't let her down.
So, best friend, I'll never tell you this, but you're the reason I didn't SH today. Thank you.

Well said

If you are successful, you won't feel relief... You won't feel a single thing. If you are alive you have the chance to change everything and be happy but once you're gone, you don't feel a thing at all.

it's exhausting stopping the blood flow.

you have worked too hard to cave in and throw it all away.

it's not worth it.

the inexplicable guilt that comes after.

having to tell people a cat scratched you/you tripped...

itching.

1.My family will be angry
2.Could end up back in hospital.
3.Will have to explain myself to more doctors

.....but it's hard not to....