[Lexicon78]

Oh, my! this feels great...no emotion...feeling nothing but the cuts...I love it! Yes, I cut again. There goes my 2 months free of cutting. Oh, well. Don't really care at this point.

My step-sister started lecturing me about my dad and how I should focus on my life with my bf, not my dad. He is my FATHER...not some normal person. He's more important to man than anybody else in this world. Why should'nt I think of him and going through the loss of our once wonderful relationship?

I know you guys don't want to hear about all this stuff, but it's taking over my mind...I'm out of control and the darned meds don't work anyways!

[ktp]

Lexicon:

Maybe the meds do work, it's just that you don't realize it. I mean you did go 2 months without s.i. I know from experience that it's really really very hard and it takes a day by day, sometimes minute by minute approach. Your sister had no right to try to tell you how to live your life and what you should feel, it's shame on her. Maybe she meant well, and it just worried her that she thought you might be obsessing about it, I don't know, but sometimes the people we love just get angry or frustrated when they can't figure out what to do to "fix us". I hope this makes sense to you. I also hope that you start anew today because you're worth much more than you realize.

Take care of yourself and BE SAFE!

Kimberly.

[Lexicon78]

I got told tonight that talking about cutting was dangerous. I wonder why I was told that. You know who you are that told me that. Will I get booted for talking about it?

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((Lexicon))))))))))))))))) Tomorrow is another day. Just think one day, one hour or one minute at a time. Each of them is winning. Try and look forward and not back.

I am sorry that you were told to ignore your relationship with your father. You should do what you think is best not what everyone is telling you. It is you that you need to take care of.

Take care and good luck.

[Zorah]

It's Ok Lex, we don't cut, but we bash things & break bones. We aren't supposed to talk about it here. PM anytime.
Also hi bipolar bear, my son belongs to a band (in Australia) called the Bipolar Bears, although he's schizo
Raven Girl.

[Lexicon78]

I have a question...why shouldn't I post about my cutting here? It's ok for everyone else to post about it, but I'm forbidden? That's BS! I am so sick of being told what I can and cannot post or say! What happened to freedom of speech as long as I have the trigger icon on my post?

[silver_queen]

I don't think Zorah was writing saying you're not allowed to talk about cutting... I don't think she was telling you what you can and can't do at all.

[ktp]

Lexi:

I'm so confused, who said you shouldn't post? I think we've all done it, as in talking about si. What's up???? I'm really very concerned about you. I made you a present --a sig tag and I dont think you've picked it up.I hope things start looking up soon. Be safe.

Take care,
Kimberly.

[ktp]

Ok, so I was a little slow. Now I know what it was about (thanks silver). Lexi: I agree -- I think Zorah was speaking more of her own self's feelings, not referring to you. That's why I was confused, I guess I read it differently than you did.

Please be safe & I hope you know that you do have folks to talk to anytime.

Hugs,
Kimberly.

[shadowdancer]

Raven Girl was merely saying that -they- (meaning Zorah as a whole) weren't allowed to post about it here. that had nothing to do with you Lex. i don't think Raven Girl meant it in anyway to be telling you what you can and cannot say.

-shadow