the fun in life driven out of me....

I dont expect anyone to post to this post. hehe post to a post.. Yeah . I need to vent a little bit of my pist mist out here.

I am so sick of shaking in the morning so bad i cant even write my name. I am sick of this GOSH darn headache that wont go away. Im sick of being triggered to cut but have no urge too. That sounds weird but it makes sense to me. I am sick of all the bloody noses i get at nite. I am sick of my cat paige waking me up at nite and wont let me go to sleep. I love her an all but darn thats annoying when u haft to work. I am also sick if food and sick of binging on it till i puke. Im sick of wedsnday. Im sick of family on my butt to get another job when i allready have one. Ya think one would be enough but nope. Im sick of my head talking and chattering. Im sick of my knees cracking and hurting. Im sick of everything today. I got triggered in ASL when we learned the sign pair and the teacher said pretend its like a scissors and your going to cut something up. Knowing me I think My arm. But the drug im on naltrexone works so darn well i have no urge. But i think about it.
Thanks for letting me vent. Dont need to respond. I just needed to get this out of my head.

thinking of you