[larakeziah]

on a monday morning i normally go help my friends mum with her little cleaning job she has but because of her sons weddin at weekend she was still tired and so has arranged to go tomorrow (tuesday) thinkin i could still go with her but when i told her i couldn't cos i was going with my friend to support her at her court case to get her kids back she wasn't happy at all and snapped at me before she went out shoppin. When she came back she said i'd really upset her and she said that the night before, that being last night she'd said she might go tuesday instead and she said i'd said it was fine! I don't remember this conversation cos if i had i'd have said i couldn't make tuesday. Now she really pissed at me and so is my friend! I can't take it anymore i'm already on the edge and i've had to hold on till the weddin was over! This is the last straw! I been sat in my room cuttin over be over and over! I can't cope any more! Sorry for ranting!

[WePow]

Rant away - it may help release the poison.

[Sannah]

These are friends?

[larakeziah]

yeah they are supposed to be! My 'best friend' has ignored me all day except for the sly comments at dinner time and when i past her to go to my room. Her mum aint said anythin to me either except to tell me dinner was ready! I jus don't see the point anymore!

[Sannah]

So you live with them?

[larakeziah]

yeah i've lived with them for about 4 years

[Sannah]

Then maybe they should be thought of as roommates or the landlord and not so much as best friends since they aren't acting like best friends? Looking at them this way may help because then you won't expect as much out of them and then you won't be hurt and disappointed?

[larakeziah]

i guess. But when i stay in my room they complain that i'm not being part of the family. So i can't win. I'm jus so tired of all this. I've jus been to the library and got a couple of books on bipolar for them to read, as well as me. If they don't seem to be makin an effort to read them then i'm going to have to consider movin out and stayin with my mum or my gran. I'm jus physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted and i can't go on this way. I'm off to see my baby nephew now so hopefully he'll cheer me up a little. Thanks for being here. It means a lot!

[Sannah]

Family members aren't best friends either. (My husband is my best friend, though). Sounds like you really want them to understand BiPolar like it is a test or something that they will either pass or fail?

I know that I can adjust my disapointment or frustration by changing my expectations. A person can set their expectations to the point where they can make themselves exhausted.

Did your nephew cheer you up?

You are welcome Lara.........

[larakeziah]

i've jus left my nephew's and he did cheer me up! He's only 8 weeks old and i got a couple of smiles and a little laugh which made my day. Its not that i want them to know everything about bipolar but makin a little bit of an effort would be nice. I've jus got some books from the library on bipolar for them to have a look at so hopefully they'll at least try. Thanks again!

[Ebpm]

It's always great to get a little cheering up! I'm glad you got to see your nephew ;-)

Sometimes it's very difficult for people to understand bipolar, or anything of the sort, unless they have it. Maybe you could have them check out this website that has a nice, breif description? Hope all is well, hang in there! ;-)

[larakeziah]

thank you. I've thought about introducin them to PC but this is my getaway, my private place and i talk about them a lot on here and i wouldn't want them to get the wrong idea and be upset with me. I have some books from the library so gonna see if they want to have a look at them. If they don't then i know they are not really serious about learnin about bipolar. Thanks again. Oh yeah and i'm seeing my nephew again next week! Can't wait. He always cheers me up!