[hopefully21]

WTF like I am tired tired of life tired of everything like sometimes I care and I am conscious of my scars and everything like I am a 21 year old college student I party I like to dress cute and everything sometimes I just dnt care what I wear and my scars show like now its winter and its not an issue so much I am just tired of hurting tried of life to be perfectly honest I shouldn't have to keep doing this self destructing cutting throwing up thriving to be perfect in the eyes of others and for myself especially myself and I dnt know whats wrong just tired of everything the ups and downs of everything like having to explain everytime someone see my scars i shld just be like mind your ****ing business which i do in a polite matter i suppose but do ppl really want to know are they that concerned like seriously or are they ****ing nosey little bastards like oh i have scars because i can't cope with my emotions and that i was molested twice once between 4-5 and again with my mother's husband molesting me from 11-17 and i seen and did things that a child shouldnt know about i am just too thru with everything what do i have to live for i feel exhausted just too done..........i want answers for everything and i know thats impossible everything can't be explained like for me 1+1=2 it makes sense and for some reason the answer comes out to be 3 every ****ing time i like feeling emotionless to be honest to feel is to hurt and to hurt is to have a reaction to those feelings i dnt like feeling so overwhelmed with everything........ugh this was a waste of space and time sorry to bother everyone with my b/s just needed to vent fml

[suzzie]

(((( hopefully ))))

[Skully]

I know how you feel about the scars and what I have heard people do is make up really funny stories about them. Like "I got into a fight with a racoon" I had unprotected sex with a porcupine, I took my lizards for a walk and they held on for dear life, I keep falling off of cliffs trying to catch that damned roadrunner, I fell asleep, and the clown got me, I wrestle Tigers... , I'll just put it this way: when they tell you not to feed the bears, it's for a damned good reason.

Scars are no laugh matter, but sometimes when you say something like the above examples, it switches the "gears" in their minds and the conversation topic is changed. I have found it works quite well. I hope they are of some help to you and you don't take it the wrong way...I am not making fun of you by saying silling things like the above, just trying to help out a little

[hopefully21]

Yea cld say something like that......I just get frustrated its everything tho realizing I can't look into the future with my eating disorder cutting and other problems I can only one day at a time i use to look ahead but i just cant anymore and it sux and its disappointing especially to me ugh too young for so much freaking choas and misery 2011 has to start turning around

[hrdcoreathlete]

Hopefull, PM message me

[Bmee2]

Originally Posted by Skully

I know how you feel about the scars and what I have heard people do is make up really funny stories about them. Like "I got into a fight with a racoon" I had unprotected sex with a porcupine, I took my lizards for a walk and they held on for dear life, I keep falling off of cliffs trying to catch that damned roadrunner, I fell asleep, and the clown got me, I wrestle Tigers... , I'll just put it this way: when they tell you not to feed the bears, it's for a damned good reason.

Scars are no laugh matter, but sometimes when you say something like the above examples, it switches the "gears" in their minds and the conversation topic is changed. I have found it works quite well. I hope they are of some help to you and you don't take it the wrong way...I am not making fun of you by saying silling things like the above, just trying to help out a little

Those are great answers. i hope you do not mind but i am going to use the one about getting into a fight with a raccoon. Superb answers. Thank you for sharing them.

[Winter Moon]

Hope you're feeling a little better.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Hopeful, I know it is hard and I wish that I had the answers that you are looking for but right now I don't. All I can say is that I am here for you if you want to talk. Keep on going, things will improve eventually. Stay safe Sweetheart. Hope to talk to you soon.