[Detia]

Alright, so I've been trying to do other things to fight off the urges. One thing I've been doing is hitting my punching bag when I get angry rather than penting the emotions up like I usually do.

So I have no ace bandage wrap or punching gloves for my fists. A few years ago, before the punching bag came down for about 3 years due to moving and living space, I would hit the bag so much that my knuckles bled. I wasn't aware that it happened until after punching. Wraps helped a little, but since then my wraps have been destroyed or gone missing.

So far my knuckles haven't bled from punching at the punching bag, and I've tried to use sweater sleeves or a bit of cloth that I found lying around to guard my knuckles. However trying to make sure that it's placed right around my fist is causing me to hit the bag wrong so I prefer to punch the bag with a bare fist.

Is it a bad idea to continue punching the bag until I get wraps, or could it be considered a form of SI that I shouldn't encourage right now?

Thank you ahead of time for your input!

[racee]

what do you think...now i'm not trying to be criptive about it but if you have doubts yourself that it might be SI than yes it is but if you don't than it's not.
peoples opinions will vary i have a punching bad and i prefer bare fists when i hit it it gets my anger out better and i feel better...do i feel like i'm hurting myself....no do my hands hurt afterwards??,,,,,not anymore if i had them taped up.

you are going to get a lot of different opinions on this one so i would stick with your first instinct in your head

[Detia]

Thank you Racee. I'm pretty certain that it's not SI, but I like to double check to make sure. Seeing as I don't want a friend looking at my fists if they end up bruised or something, and then giving me a look because of their opinion on the matter or something like that.

Then again, I don't know why I'm so worried because they were all glad for me that I got my punching bag back.

[racee]

the end of the day the only person you have to answer to is yourself and if you can live and go on with what you have done than so be it....if others can not...they are not the ones that have to live in this (your) body. i understand you have your friends and their opinions matter. i have to worry all the time how i look in front of my family because of past drug use...any marks on my arms bruises or if i loose a bunch of weight if i don't feel like getting dressed that day and im not all done up, even if i'm wearing sunglasses. i always have to think about these things when my partner thinks its silly but he didn't know me than.
for even worring about it it says a lot. it shows you wanting to get better and your willingness to "keep on truckin" (huge greatfull dead fan) hehe

[Sannah]

When you are punching the bag are you thinking at all about punishing yourself by doing it?

[Detia]

Thank you very much, Racee. I agree with a lot of what you said, and I think it's helped me settle down a bit.

No, not really Sannah. I really don't think that at all, I just think about getting all of my negative emotions out so that I don't lash on anyone or internalize it. Sometimes I think about how the people I'm mad at should be held accountable... Especially because I could never willingly hurt them... It just allows me to get the anger towards them out in a seemingly healthy manner.

[Mike_J]

I used to take a kick-boxing class and everyone wrapped up their hands to hit the "dummies" I got some gloves designed for that, I think they would hold up better than just wraping you hands. I know they worked great for me and soon most of the class was doing the same thing.

Just a techincal point, not sure how to comment on the SI angle.

[Detia]

Thanks either way Mike_J. Ive been thinking .of getting gloves jus as double protection.