Started cutting again..

I don't exactly know why... but a couple days ago I began to cut again. I used to, slightly, when I was younger, but never really bad. But a few days ago I found this razor thing in a sewing kit, and I just... decided to test it. Well, it is apparently pretty sharp, and now I began to use it to cut myself. I noticed I feel worse than I did before I started this, but I just can't seem to stop. I also decided to opt out of my therapist appointment today, and I don't want to leave the house. I'm afraid someone will find out, and get on to me.. I really don't know how to explain it. I could just throw away the razor, but I lost it the other day and freaked out.. I just don't know what to do. Does anyone have any suggestions? I am new to this forum, and hope that I am doing this right. I should probably mention that there is a lot going on in my life right now. My dad has been out of work for two years, my insurance just stopped covering me (which is part of the reason I decided to not go to the therapist. I was afraid I would get a bill), I don't have any friends... and my dad is ill. :/ I just.. don't feel I can handle all of this.

Welcome to PC.

Please call your therapist. Make another appointment. Explain the financial situation. Explain that you need support. And then see what your T has to say - if they can see you at a reduced price, or find you another T that is cheaper.

Trying to stop cutting by yourself is really hard, please stop doing it now before it becomes more of an obsession. In the main part of the self injury forum is a pinned topic - things you can do instead of SI (self injury). See if you can make a list of reasons not to cut, and a list of things you can do instead of cutting.

Hey,

It sounds like there's a lot going on in your life right now, and that may have been what caused the urges to hurt yourself in the first place. Once you start hurting yourself again or even for the first time it is often very difficult to stop.

I recommend calling your therapist and scheduling an appt. to talk so you can get to the bottom of why you started cutting again and how you can stop. I think it will help.

Good luck with your recovery and getting through this. Hang in there.