[gothic cloud]

Everyones sick of my sadness and everything. Everyone yells at me when I'm sad I cut a lot i I've carved names into me wit razors I cut because every time I like someone I get hurt I think about a lot about suisde like it'd be ironic if I died after my birthday I kno why I cut and people call me a wanna be because they don't know I do but if I tell them it'll get into drama like last time I cut because all I want is a good relationship with this guy but that's a diffrent story, I hate 2 know that I'm like this girl I hate I don't know why I hate her, I guess I'm just jealous? But I don't know I don't know what I want out of this, but I hate being obbsesive I wonder why? What causes that anyway? Well I'm rambling on but I just need some sort of help, thanks again!

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time.

Is there anybody that you trust that you can talk to about this? Parents, good friends, a therapist, etc. It sounds like you might benefit from some counselling to sort through your issues.

It might also be good to try distracting yourself when you get these thoughts to self-harm. Are there any activities you enjoy doing that you could distract yourself with? For example, whenever I'm feeling like hurting myself, I like to take walks, hang out with friends or family, and watch comedy tv shows.

Sending you safe hugs, and I hope you are feeling better soon.

[Sannah]

Hi gothic, welcome to PC. I'm sorry that you are struggling. Are you in therapy?