[shatteredmirror]

MAY TRIGGER
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see the edges so sharp
see the shame depart
feel the release
of pain severe

Sometimes I find I look for the blade. The need for release is great. I pull it from its pack, staring at the power it holds over me, I remove the cardboard covering the sharp edges, staring at it shininess, the sharpness of the edges. The reflection entrances me, I see the power within it to release me, my mind becomes focused, I dream of the release it offers me, my hand moves on its own, it has powers I need, it will release the pain and shame, draining the poison from within, as I feel the edge on my skin, I tremor with anticipation, I feel no pain from its edges, as I trace the line it will define, the need for release is so great, and the power it holds is so entrancing. I see in the shininess, pain no more. But wait, I then must hide the scar; try to explain it away, for few will understand the need or power the blade will bring. So once again, I reverently cover the edges, returning the blade to its place or reverence, to await its return another day. Keeping the pain and shame within.
shelley and the zoo

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