[Snowkitten]

Hi
I was hospitalised in Jan after attempt, on 2 anti depressants and really strugglng again. I can't stop crying and I don't know what to do anymore... I am diabetic and I binge on sugar till I black out. I don't even know if this is self harm? I can't even be normal in that aspect.
My life is a disaster. I am sorry I don't even know why I am posting here, I know other people have their probs too. If I am not able to help others then this huge waste of space should just disappear.

[Sannah]

Hi Kitten, welcome to PC. You must be in a lot of pain to hurt yourself with the sugar. Do you think that you are trying to punish yourself?

I'm sorry that you are feeling in such distress. Do you have a therapist?

[Snowkitten]

Hi Sannah
I don't know if I have a therapist, I met my Care Worker yesterday for the first time and she was asking all sorts of questions trying to get to understand whats going on and I guess the can of worms has exploded. She said she was going to follow up whether I am still under Pdoc
I don't really know if I am trying to punish myself or not or subtly trying to annihilate myself. I should be stronger, I should be able to pull myself together for my kids sake at least.

[Sannah]

Everything that you do is for a reason. When a person has stuff to work through they just can't "pull themselves together". A person has to work through this stuff and understand themselves. Can your care worker get a therapist for you?

[vickielholt]

(((((((safe hugs)))))) i agree with Sannah listen to her she has helped me a good bit already and ive only been posting about a week here. im sorry that you are hurting so badly i do agree however that the sugar binges does sound like you might be trying to self harm but in a different way than myself and others experience. i hope you find some peace and understanding for yourself during this trying time sending well wishes your way